It takes more then one to raise a family- God,Family,and Friends
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Goals for 2010- updated 12-31-09
1. Depend more on God
2. Read more of the bible and study it more in detail
3. Focus on what I can do and not what I can't
4. Pray more-
5. Learn to cook a new dish each month
6. Persevere -Flourish
7. Keep losing weight-
8. No trips to the CSU
9. To enjoy life - Choose joy
10. Cancel the worries and anxieties that I dwell on- God has it under control
I am sure I will have more but this is a start and fresh in my mind
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Weekend in Review
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(Marcus and I sitting on the jetty rocks with surfers behind us)
( opening a soccer ball for grannie and papaw's house)
(watching something)
(this is Molly Moo- she is loving on me after I gave her an orange)
( my new executive chef)
(mi madre and padre)
(Marcus opening a Santa gift)
(mom and dad's tree)
Friday, December 25, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I want to give it all away just like the song
Listen to the song-
Monday, December 21, 2009
Christmas service 2009
8 Marcus never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Busy Day
Life coaching began the day and we were sharing different things God has done in our life and reflecting on our words for the year- remember mine was perseverance-
I have persevered this year - shall I recap a little
change in job location and yet with the same division- learning the functions of the new facility
and all the changes that have occurred-
2 trips to the CSU for Marcus - stabilization unit- not fun but needed to go through it-
Now Marcus can be daily issues and sometimes hourly- so persevering through each day
I am so thankful for my Savior- and giving me strength when my was so depleted
Sometimes we look at our adversary so different after we go through it and that is what I do- how I have grown from each struggle or tribulation- it allows me to realize how much I need to allow God to run my life and trust Him- He does have it all in control and if I just listen and be obedient and pray with out ceasing he turns it all around
Some of the good that has happened- my passion for God has grown and I love to worship Him even when the days are so bad- I have great friends- which they mean more to me then friendship they are family- they lift me up and hold me up when I need it - God sure knew who I needed in my life for this season. I have learned to stand even when I do not feel like it- I have learned to pray even when I have no words to say-
in the midst of all the trials - one good and amazing thing is I have lost weight and in a size that I was in high school- now to keep it off the right way. this is truly a blessing cause I have been wanting to lose weight of course not exactly how i planned it but now I am going to keep it off.
God is good and I just love Him so much- God knows the plans for me it was written even before I was born- okay God show me what you have planned in 2010. I know it i will be amazing
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Hey mommy do you know...
You know 4 years ago was Marcus' first Christmas ever-and each year I get tickled when he comes up with these things he does- this year he is so into Christmas songs-
We were at publix last night ad he was singing Jingle Bells- and a few others- he said mommy do you know any- so I started singing with him- he got a big grin- you know these type of moments so so so lovely and take away the meltdown moments- I just pray for more of these precious moments-
He is into the Gaithers Christmas CD and sings some of the songs so beautifully - I love to hear him sing- this is one of his favorites- turn off the music at the bottom of the blog so you can hear it - I love it
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Soon...
I have not been feeling too great- got a cold or something and when you have a cold and deal with a challenging child it is very tiring even more so- Sunday Night was an example- Marcus got mad cause he lost playing a video game and I had no energy to deal with him- Pastor Larry and Tom stepped in and helped so much- then last night he got mad cause we had to leave practice why because it was past time to leave - we were in the car on the way home when that meltdown occurred-
just worn out and need this vacation to sleep -
this time oof year tends to bring out more of the ugly in Marcus- hopefully it will be over quickly- work has been busy and hopefully will start to smooth over a little more-it has been better.
I am hoping to get a good nights sleep tonight- pray I do and sleep all night
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Do you want to see what it is like in my house
Monday, December 7, 2009
I think God is really trying to tell me something
Let me just explain some may think oh your tribulation or trial is nothing- no it is something it truly is- dealing with a child that has anger issues and hanging on to the past - holding bitterness in his heart- these are not small tantrums and he is not a weakling child- these are full blown screaming pushing kicking and hitting tantrums- from a very strong young man- he becomes like the hulk when he gets mad-they get overwhelming and tiring to deal with and when he does not want to work through it the way he has been taught the point is why even try anymore- why not just give up on trying to work with him- and honestly that is really how I have felt- over the past few weeks off and on. I put all this energy and time into helping him and he is not even putting any effort into changing his actions or reactions.
Last night I am hoping was the beginning of a breakthrough- we talked for about an hour on anger and the "man" Marcus shared some more things he is remembering and I asked him how he felt towards him- he could ot verbalize it- so I had him write a letter to the "man".
Dear Bob (not real name)
I am angry, I am mad, I am sad, I hate you that you did ..... to me
To Bob
From Marcus
I also had hiim close his eyes and think about what the man did to him and then I had him scream at the man ad get out all the feelings he had toward him- (the dog did not like it) but I think it helped Marcus-
We talked about forgiveness and how Marcus needed to get to the point of forgiving the man- I said you do not have to like him and he should pray for him. it was a very good converastion and I think the start of a breakthrough for him- Dont Give Up- keep praying
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Saturday, December 5, 2009
Deck the halls with ....
tomorrow hopefully will be a more productive day after a great day at church.
Busy day tomorrow though as well - work- church and then who knows what- else hopefully it will be a good day
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Never Give Up
Many people did not realize how so this was what I was saying a few weeks ago-Truly I was - I wanted to give up so much on everything I was tired and exhausted and did not want to deal with aything anymore- I wanted to give up- and then God spoke through several instances to me and then again today -The break through is coming right around the corner- hold on and do not give up.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Shopping and Such
We did not do thanksgiving dinner last night ours will be celebrated Saturday- We did go around the table though about what we are thankful for and Marcus said he was thankful for his mommy- aww so proud and then we got to Ainsley and she said she was thankful for her Aunt Chele' before her parents - Got to love it :)
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Happy Thanksgiving
Monday, November 23, 2009
Home with the boy today
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Saturday, November 21, 2009
Strongholds be Gone
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
The day that changed my life
If you would have asked me last night I would have said please take him-
I do love him and would do anything for him -it is just so hard- very tiring and very overwhelming at times-
We are family- forever- through the good the bad and ugly- and sometimes family needs extra help. and that is what we are doing-help for him and me-
Sunday, November 15, 2009
National Adoption Month
November 21, 2009, will mark the 10th year for National Adoption Day. Through the help of adoption professionals, child advocates, judges, and attorneys, thousands of children in foster care will finalize adoption and become part of a permanent home and family.
The History of National Adoption Day
2000 - National Adoption Day began with the Alliance for Children's Rights and support from the Freddie Mac Foundation, the Dave Thomas Foundation for Adoption, and others. Hundreds of adoptions were finalized in 9 jurisdictions.
2001 - The number of jurisdictions increased to 17.
2002 - Assistance from Casey Family Services, Children's Action Network, the Congressional Coalition on Adoption Institute and Target. This support brought 34 jurisdictions to National Adoption Day and 1,350 adoptions were finalized.
2003 - 3,100 adoptions were finalized and 120 jurisdictions participated in the event.
2004 - 3,400 adoptions finalized at 200 events in 37 states.
2006 - The largest of number of coast-to-coast celebrations with more than 250 events in all fifty states including the District of Columbia and Puerto Rico! More than 3,300 adoption were finalized.
2007 - More than 300 events were held in all fifty states including the District of Columbia and Puerto Rico.
2008 - More than 4,000 children across all 50 states found loving, permanent homes.
Each year, more and more children are being adopted on National Adoption Day and the events are becoming more widespread. In total more than 25,000 children have been adopted from foster care on National Adoption Day.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
The love of Friends ad Family
And I would do anything for them - that I can- from patchin up wounds- to moving them to whatever- giving rides-to just calling ad checking on how I am doing.- yes this past week I realized how much I need them in my life- they have helped me so in the process of having Marcus ad learning and growing with him- there are days where I just sit and thank God over and over for them.
I know I brag on them all the time my family- they have been so essential in helping me keep my sanity-
I have figured out that being with family over the last week- that additional person or persons has helped so much- and Marcus behaving this week has helped so much-
I also have started retaking my vitamins and looking into starting some excercise - steps to success and looking after me- if I am not doing well then I can not help him
Friday, November 13, 2009
better week then last - however
Somehow Ineed time for me -time for me to chill- and this does not mean be alone and Marcus be with others- I realized over this past week- my anxiety level was much decreased when we were with others- I made an appointment with our EAP department at work - to get that added help-
when you are in the thick of things sometimes you lose sight of reality and what is going on around you-
so I have a long way to go- but with being honest with friends and family and seeking out additional help I will make it through- God is right here with me -wrapping His arms around me
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
My therapy
Oh I have a ways to go and so does Maddie Moo- but we both will survive and thrive- it is just going to take time to heal-
I am truly sad Maddie got hit- accidents happen- and yet so thankful this happened in just the right timing-
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Wake up Call
Not focusing- just going through the motions- sleep what is that? I go to bed but usually up at 2 or 3 and then wide awake- house chores are done when I feel like it or when it gets bad -although this I am doing better at- just at the end of my rope and that is not good and I need to not be there- How can I continually help him if I am not helping me-it has effected me my work my home-
One thing that keeps me going is teaching Sunday School and the love of God to the kids- one thing that keeps me going is using my skills in helping animals- and helping others- it felt good to help Maddie last night - even though I do not wish that on anyone (MAddie is our pastors dog and was hit by a car)
What can you do- pray and pray and pray - believe when I can't
I will make it - I am too stubborn not too- just a real rough time- however I serve and AWESOME God and He will help me through- and I have loving family and friends who will help me through.
This is my prayer in the desert And all that's within me feels dry This is my prayer in the hunger in me My God is a God who provides Verse 2:And this is my prayer in the fire In weakness or trial or pain There is a faith provedOf more worth than gold So refine me Lord through the flames Chorus:And I will bring praise I will bring praise No weapon forged against me shall remainI will rejoice I will declare God is my victory and He is here Verse 3:And this is my prayer in the battle And triumph is still on it's way I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ So firm on His promise I'll stand Bridge:All of my life In every seasonYou are still GodI have a reason to singI have a reason to worshipVerse 4: This is my prayer in the harvest When favor and providence flowI know I'm filled to be empited again The seed I've recieved I will sow
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
God's promise to us- My promise to Marcus
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Its a New Month
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Saturday, October 31, 2009
Just Fix Him
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Monday, October 26, 2009
New day same story
The I do not wants toos- the I do not cares- the refusal to do things- i can understand if it was just at home and it was a me thing - however it is at school- church and home-at others houses
I continually question myself of how I can do things different- so I try new ways and guess what it is the same response as above- he also gets angry and throws a meltdown too-
I keep persevering I keep trying I keep standing and yet I feel like my knees are about to crumble and not allow me to stand anymore.
And yet again I hear the same song everytime when I first I get in the car- I will rise by Chris Tomlin-
I will not give up- I will not give up- may need to call on some friends more often so I can have down time for me- it is a needed with any parent- single parent- and especially a special needs parent
Pressing on - Pressing through-
Sunday, October 25, 2009
ITs a Celebration
As I begin to think about what I was going to say today- I have been thinking about this for weeks-no words came to my mind on how to express how our pastors mean to me.
What do you say to 2 people who pour into your life?
That challenge you to reach your potential in what God has for you
That hears from God and brings His word to you every week-
That cries when you cry and rejoices when you rejoices-
What do you say to 2 people that have such a heart such a compassion to reach the lost?
I came up with just a couple of things to say to you PL and PD
Always remember you are not alone- we are here to lift you up - we are here to pray with you- we are here to move forward and celebrate with you in all that God has for His church
And one finally word I want to say before I share what we have planned for you is:
I love you and your kids from the depth of my heart- you all mean so much to me.
In time and with patience
I have learned much patience and still am learning much patience- sometimes I pray God fix him and make it all good- I know such a profound statement-
Last night I was telling a friend of mine- I just hope for one day with no meltdowns- we have had too many over this past month-
Yesterday was probably on eof the best days in a while- we still had a meltdown or 2 and yet they were not so bad.
The song I will rise seems to be on whenever I get in the car and turn it on-as if to tell me - Michele you will rise- one day there is going to be no more pain no more tears-to hang on and persevere- did I pick the word for me this year - wowzers- so I am persevering-I am hangin on-sometimes by the knot at the end of the rope but I am still hanging on- sometimes I feel lke the knot is slipping and then there are those of you who I love -who say a word - send an email and yes sometimes slap me around (not really- well maybe - no) and have me get a reality check- each person has been knowing what to say at the right time-
the bonfire with the youth - came at just the right time- sitting in the fire ok not really in the fire by the fire- and watching it was so very relaxing and just what I needed- so I think I need a fire place :)
In time and patience- IN time and patience- IN TIME and Patience- IN TIME and PATIENCE
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Youth at the parents house
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Friday, October 23, 2009
I am Trying trying trying
God is helping me through this trial or tribulation or what ever you want to call it- I know I am standing cause I am being held by Him-
The only road block I am having is the major regression Marcus is having - so it is tiring- emotionally- physically-
Hoping to see the light at the end of the tunnel- trying so hard for not to let this get me down- so keep praying I do- keep perservering I do
The words of Marcus' therapist keep ringing in my ears- do not give up you are making a difference- do not give up- you have changed his life
Then God speaks to me- DO not give up- I made him in my image- keep reminding him of that- I know you are tired and I will give you rest - Just do not give up I am here holding you -
So I am not giving up I refuse to - in this fashion I am stubborn- We will get through this regression phase - we will move on in one way or another-
Monday, October 19, 2009
Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD)
Signs and Symptoms of RAD
Children with RAD are so neurologically disrupted that they have extreme difficulty attaching to a primary caregiver, attaining normal developmental milestones or establishing normal relationships with other people. They show strong symptoms of attachment disruption. These children may be difficult or impossible to soothe, accepting comfort from no one, even the primary caregiver, and preferring to play alone. On the other hand, they may seem superficially friendly to everyone, inappropriately approaching and interacting with strangers as if they were the primary caregiver. What can be especially hard to bear for those who care for these children is that the child might not seem to be bonded to them at all, despite their attempts to show love and affection. Many of these children may be incorrectly diagnosed with severe emotional and behavioral disturbances ranging from bipolar disorder to depression. Families caring for children with RAD will benefit from treatment and therapeutic parenting skills. In time and with patience, even severe attachment disorders can be repaired.
Adoptive and foster parents open their hearts and homes to children who have sometimes been severely abused and neglected. These parents might not have expected the challenges that come with children with attachment difficulties. Even if these challenges are known, anger, lashing out and difficult behaviors can be frustrating and hard to handle. Remember that the child is not acting out because of lack of love for you. They are acting out because their brain development has actually progressed differently. Your stability in the child’s life is giving him or her a tremendous chance to repair insecure attachments and have a much better start in life. Be sure to seek support from organizations and support groups that specialize in your situation, and don’t be afraid to seek help for yourself if you are feeling overwhelmed and frustrated.
Symptoms of insecure attachment
Emotional Problems
low self-esteem, needy, clingy or pseudo-independent behavior, inability to deal with stress and adversity, depressed, unresponsive, resists comforting.
Physical problems
susceptibility to chronic illness, obsession with food – may hoard food, gorge, refuse to eat, eat strange things, may be developmentally delayed
Social Problems
lack of self-control, inability to develop and maintain friendships, alienation from parents, caregivers, and other authority figures, overly friendly and treating strangers like the primary caregiver, aggression and violence, difficulty with genuine trust, intimacy, and affection, lack of empathy, compassion and remorse, negative, hopeless, pessimistic view of self, family and society
Learning problems
behavioral problems at school; speech and language problems; incessant chatter and questions; difficulty learning- brain development has actually progressed differently.
No matter how much we love our children, there comes a point where we are not in agreement with them, a point when we have to set limits, and say “no.” This conflict temporally ruptures the relationship as the child angrily protests. Such protest is to be expected. The key to strengthening the attachment bond of trust is to be consistently available when the child is ready to reconnect. It is also important to initiate repair when we have done something to hurt, disrespect, or shame a child. Parents aren’t perfect. From time to time, we are the cause of the disconnection. Again, our willingness to initiate repair can strengthen the attachment bond.
For children with insecure attachments and attachment disorders, this conflict can be especially disturbing and scary—for both the children and the primary caregiver. The child may overreact, having a wild tantrum, or rapidly withdraw. They may temporarily show developmentally regressive behaviors, like rocking or trouble with toileting. Don’t be afraid to set limits and boundaries with insecurely attached children. Consistent, loving boundaries will help them develop the sense of trust they need that their caregiver will be with them through thick and thin. These children also need to learn that no matter what they do, they will be loved and respected. Repairing insecure attachments and attachment disorders
Sadly, insecure attachment can be a vicious cycle. Due to problems with social relationships, insecurely attached children may become even more isolated and withdrawn from their primary caregivers, family and friends. They may be seen as “bratty” or “bullies”, making it hard for them to form relationships that may mitigate the effects of insecure attachment. However, it is never too late to work on forming secure attachments. While the brain is most pliable in infancy and early childhood, it is responsive to changes all of our lives. Relationships with relatives, teachers and childcare providers can also supply an important source of connection and strength for a child’s developing mind.
Here are some tips on repairing an insecure attachment:
Learn what creates a secure attachment. Attachment is an interactive process that requires both verbal and nonverbal skills. Emotional intelligence is critical to building a secure attachment, since even verbal children are sensing our moods and watching everything we do. Every child is unique and will have different ways to be soothed.
Provide support for the primary caregiver. The primary caregiver needs to be emotionally healthy, have adequate time, and the right skills to be attuned and responsive to the child’s needs. In some cases, the caregiver may simply be overwhelmed, and help with household or work responsibilities allows them to focus. Other caregivers may need more help, such as parenting classes, alcohol or drug treatment, or therapy for mental disorders such as emotional trauma or depression.
Help the child express his or her needs. Children with attachment problems will need extra help in learning to express their needs. They may have learned not to cry if in pain or frightened, for example, or not associate touch with being soothed. They may revert to developmentally inappropriate behaviors if stressed or scared. It might take extra creativity and diligence on the caregiver’s part to help the child express needs safely and appropriately.
Time, consistency and predictability is key. Problems in attachment result from problems with trust. By this very definition, repairing an attachment disruption takes time, consistency and patience. It will take time for a child to realize that they can trust and rely on their primary caregiver and other important people in their lives. Children with attachment disruptions may be more sensitive to life changes and situations like travel, returning to school or holidays. Caregivers should be aware and as attuned to this as possible, helping to keep a normal schedule during unpredictable times.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
3 little words and then some
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I continously learn how to deal with him and what I need to change- It is a constant learning curve.
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37 "Whoever welcomes one of these little children in my name welcomes me; and whoever welcomes me does not welcome me but the one who sent me."
Monday, October 12, 2009
I have not wanted to write
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Monday, October 5, 2009
God protects us
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Saturday, October 3, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Hanging on...
sometimes I need that reminder. last night I was reminded in a big way by God- He spoke with me about upcoming changes and to hang on cause it is going to happen quick- all good-
Not ready to share it yet but I know this is going to happen- I sense it in my spirit- and my heart.
Before I could really say what God spoke to me to Melissa she told me exactly what He told me - I was like okay God this is you and not me.
So I am hanging on and know I am not forgotten.
And so excited about what God has for me - for us. Thanks Cathy and Candy for praying with me- you all are gems
Saturday, September 26, 2009
The week did not get much better
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Suspended
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Saturday, September 19, 2009
Customer Service
Do we respond with nothing when our heavenly Father asks us something or tells us something? How does that make Him feel- rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr like me or they will get it next time. What if there is not a next time thought? Why do we not respond to God right then and there-
I myself this week had a perfect opportunity to respond and did not why? I am not sure. I am hoping God will give me another chance this week to respond with this person.
So what I have learned and continue to learn is respond to what God is asking of you- do not leave Him hanging waiting for your response- let Him know you heard Him.
I hear you God and will be responding even more
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Marveling
God is working in me- I am trying my best to improve as a manager to see and work through things at work with His guidance, with His touch. Last night was a duh moment in service and it really had nothing to do with what PD was talking about and at the same time it did. I have not been speaking with God about work and just a simple thing PD said last night was take time to be quiet and listen to Him. So I made a list of what I needed to begin to pray about for work and every morning this will be prayed about until breakthrough happens. I believe it will happen sooner rather then later.
We had open house on Tuesday, Marcus is doing very well in school. He received a B on his math test . Which I am so proud of, he is in mainstream math. He leaves his classroom everyday and walks by himself with no other person going with him (this is new from last year) He is being more responsible at school. His behavior specialist even said we may work on mainstreaming him even more. He must have seen my look of anxiety on my face because he said we will take baby steps for you mom so you become adjusted. We laughed. Yes in the now almost 3 years of him being at Lake Myrtle we have come so far, from the many days of having outburst and being secured in timeout room , to him (Marcus) now putting himself in their when he needs to calm himself down. AMAZING - Marveling.
(Gayle - I tried my best- this one was for you and hopefully the sentence structure was better then normal- LOVE YOU)
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
new and refreshed insight
yesterday was a good day- long day at work and my back is sore from it but we had to essentially get 2 days of work into 1 because of things going on with the building-so today will be a day to work on things and get things done that usually is put on the wayside- it is a day of catch up
oh and remember yesterday when i said I need a mini vacation well- i took Friday off- and I am going ot sleep in an extra hour ( still need to get Marcus to school) then have a list of projects to get done around here
~~ different topic- ever since we lost our friend Bernd- Marcus talks about where he is and how you get to heaven and if you do not have Jesus in your heart you will not go - and I am like yep you got it-everyday it is a new question which is good- I love to answer his questions
Monday, September 14, 2009
What has beenth going on
over the past week- we have had our caseworker come in which is a monthly visit- and love her- she is great- then we got some very sad news about a very dear person who passed away on Wednesday- which was very interesting cause Marcus has never had to deal with a death so for me it was a little bit different explaining to him- i think he got it- thursday was a busy day with soccer and such- was a special soccer game- coach Gig came and (his track coach) and watched i thought that was great-love our track family.
friday we went to tobias house with the dog because we had to get up to go to Venice fo the memorial service for Bernd- it was a very heart warming service- he touched many lives while here on this earth- then we came back and i heade to the St Pete time forum for a girls night out with Ainsley and my sister to watch the princesses ice skate. it was very good and the skater were very talented.
then Sunday was service - it was off the chain as PD would put it- God moved in a mighty way and all I can say is if you live in the Tampa Bay area you need to come to Northside to see what God is doing.
that was a run down - a quick run down of last weeks events-
for me- i am worn out- just want time to rest- but find myself having things to do and not getting them done. not sure why i am ususally pretty organized - i guess i am just tired of doing it all and do not wan to do anymore- oh i know that sound horrible but dealig with behavior issues household issues work issues etc gets to you- no i am not overwhelmed and i am not complaining- just would like to catch up on things that need a accomomplish hmm- maybe I need to take a mini vacation from work and get the things done-
work is improving - i need to improve- i just need more knowledge in my manager skills-i know God will help me with this- he has already provided some help- i have a meeting tonight so i know it will be a good one
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Greetings from the land of the Danielsons
so i am in a funk- i know the house needs cleaned but do not feel like doing it-
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Friday, August 28, 2009
What a difference a year makes
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Here I am
I will write more later on just wanted to stop in and say the first week of school is going by well- Marcus is adjusting back to the schedule- will post pictures soon- can you believe he is in 3rd grade? where has the time gone
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Truly Blessed
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Hopeful for Someday-
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Marcus first soccer game 2009
3rd grade here we come
Monday, August 17, 2009
Blindsided by my own reaction
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Friday, August 14, 2009
No soccer game last night
hopefully he will be able to do it next week
glad it is Friday - I need some rest tonight - I am worn out
Thursday, August 13, 2009
worn out
we "hugged" for about 30 minutes before we were able to go into service- he just was wack a doodle all over me- need some wisdom on this type of situation cause it usually happens a day after soccer - church- etc when he gets tired - trying to figure out how to handle it all better -
I am very proud of how I am handling things- I look back and say wow I have come a long way-(yes I am starting to see it)
oh it takes a physical toll on me just because he is so strong however God gives me strength (physical too) when I need it- I truly believe this
he went to service with me last night and did a great job- thanks Candy for helping and taking him under your wing-
He sang he sat and he even participated in fusion - hmmm maybe need to bring him in more often-
the ride home was pleasant and all is quiet this morning- thank goodness- now it is up to him whether he plays soccer tonight or not- by the choices he makes- Help me Jesus to help him
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Another season
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Friday, August 7, 2009
BELIEVE HE SAID NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE
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