Suspended- atleast it was day 8 this year instead of day 1

UGH!

Yesterday was not a good day- My son did not have a good day at school- he just lost control and could not get back into reality- he threatened to bite- he had to be restrained- I had not seen him like that in a very long time.

Am I angry at him- no - upset yes-because I know he can do the right thing- he was created to be the kind, caring, gentle, and having self control person I know he can be.
I am going off on a tangent so hang on.
Am I angry with the staff - no way- they were trying there best- they want to see him do his best- they see that he is sweet - they see that he is smart( he got that from me you know).

I am angry with the fact the first 4 years of his life were not good- that he did not learn how to deal with things properly - that they did not get help sooner- he was a "handful and hyper" as the paperwork said- I am angry with the foster care system for continue problems- they did not see on visits.
I am angry for the fact that there are people out there can disrupt a childs life and not realize what an impact that does- he was imbedded with solving problems by lashing out- have I taught him differently yes- but the first 4 years are the most impressionable- I - with many of you helping are changing that.
You see Marcus does not have just ADHD he also has post traumatic stress disorder- and the slightest of things can set him off- less now then ever- but it still does -

We talked on the way to grannie and papaws last night about his choices he was very apologetic after he could focus-
I am frustrated because this is not how it was suppose to happen this year- I know I know new year - changes - strangers- trust building again- he has that problem.

As we were in the principals office yesterday he started off on a tangent again - he was sitting on my lap and I whispered in his ear - I still Love you no matter what- God created you to be kind and caring- and he melted - relaxed.

So we went to grannie and papaws- thank you grannie and papaw I hope he behaves for you for the next 3 days.

So he is out of school for 3 days- Friday I have a meeting with many school officials to figure out what the next and best step is for him. I just need God's guidance with this one- to let the school know what his needs are- what I need from the school system, etc- I want him to be successful more then anything else.