Prayer and Pancakes

What do you do on a Friday Night at 11 pm in Tampa- you go to church and pray. For some it was an act of obedience for others it was it was a little more difficult then just going. Let me back up a few hours shall I .

Marcus had to physically be removed from PLACE yesterday morning by his behavioral specialist- which resulted in him having at least a 2 day suspension- which may have resulted in his termination- hence I was slightly overwhelmed in the afternoon- the day before for us was not much better- and Wednesday night was about the same-anyway- we went to therapy - Marcus and I talked with her- set up a plan and see where this goes- at this point driving home- I am tired - worn and really have no desire to do anything- Marcus came home and fell asleep and I did for a half hour just to rest-

Not feeling like going to prayer and pancakes cause I did not feel up to it- I probably look like death warmed over -and pretty much felt that way. (just being honest) this week has made me feel very weary and as I have shared with others feeling like a failure as a parent. Feeling like I have been kicked to the curb and do not know where to turn anymore-

Anyway- I decided to go - and told Marcus (yes I woke him up) if he went back to sleep then we will go out afterwards for pancakes with everyone.

Well- as we begin to sing I began to cry why- I really do not know - I think I was beginning the process of being broken- sometimes you need that to get fixed - and I hope you know what I am talking about-


**** Side note**** Dustin you did an amazing job of leading the worship- God has truly blessed you with a talent- continue to use it for his Glory.*****

Well we began to repent ask forgiveness from attitudes and actions- I am really not sure how long we prayed for this but I know I was broken into many pieces-many pieces- Not going to share here but if you know me you can ask and I will tell you.

So I went into service one way and came out so different- like never before-I was so down and distraught I did not know what to do . I went to prayer and as I pressed into God he pressed into me with comfort and guidance. So glad I showed up - SO GLAD He SHOWED UP.

Oh I am not saying everything is peachy keen- however I needed to change and I will change how things are handled from today forward-

Pastor spoke about praying for a word a gift- well you saw my word that I chose for my year- but this is different this is a a gifting -my gift I prayed for is mercy- most of you know I am pretty compassionate and forgiving however there is one area I need to have the gift of mercy.

For me prayer was powerful tonight- life changing and life saving- truly it was

After prayer we went for pancakes 33 of us- Marcus rode with Mr Bernie- and was just beaming when he came into IHOP- kudos to Peter our waiter he was fabulous- We laughed so hard -we have crazy people at out church- and one of the best parts of IHOP- no meltdowns - all was quiet

God is so good