first trip to urgent care

ok so my son comes home and says my shoulder really hurts right here mommy ( this is a miracle in itself cause he never tells me when he is sick or when he hurts things) so did all the questions does hurt when you move it -yes when it gets here- how about when I touch it no no no no YES- ok - take off shirt so I can look at it - OH MY! (thinking in my head) there is a golf ball size swelling right by his clavicle. ok i can deal with animals I can deal and be calm with my son- couple of texts to coaches and off we go- I was calm and then I told Marcus we need to get it checked out- his anxiety kicked in- i knew it would but we coped - it was cool when I saw the digital x-ray print out on the screen - I learned with dip tanks and automatic processors- the radiology tech was like we don't learn about that way anymore ( yikes am I that old)
Any who just a contusion (thank you Dr Tobias) ice and ibuprofen and sling ( which for him I think is not working ) we can still do track practice - so that is where we are headed this morning

We can skip track practice

ok so last night I had a bit a rough one- not sure if it is because Marcus' bday is approaching or Easter or what but I was missing my mom still do everyday just some days are rougher- Marcus saw as I tucked him in I was crying and asked if I was ok - I said yes just thinking of grannie he said ok. So with that in mind did not get to sleep well after midnight and then woke up with a semi migraine- Marcus was so sweet- mommy if your headache is not better this evening we do not need to go to track practice- I said oh we are going to track practice regardless- I love to watch him run- makes me smile just thinking of it- now if he stays focused when running we will do fine.

Him running often reminds me of me when I swam- lots of hours of practice and when that day of hard work pays off it is an awesome feeling

And the year of meets begin

( tattoo Marcus got on Friday -)

( out so well in the 400)

Ok so it was a long hot day- but enjoyed it immensely for several reasons- my dad came and watched Marcus run- hung out with amazing people who I love dearly ( extended family is great), was able to encourage my son that he was able to run well ( he was nervous- its been awhile) , enjoyed the gigantic hug I got after he ran the 400- he was beaming - brought tears to my eyes to see him do so well. Watch him run another amazing race with his 800- He placed 4th in both and ran both of them with best times- - so proud-

On the way home he was singing praise and worship songs- again I am blessed- went through so much but I sit back and stand in awe of how blessed I am to be his mom- God thank you for allowing me to see this young man flourish - ( i know he is a normal 10 almost 11 year old now)

I want to encourage you all- that if you are going through things of life and think there is no way out- hang on and hang on tight- you will get through- there is a light at the end of the tunnel - it may be a long tunnel but keep your eye on the light and you will be good.

Keep praising Him for He is worthy

taken classes

ok yes i am taking classes- for what to become a parent coach- why i want to help those parents think there is no hope for their children and help them to realize that it is not just about how the kids handle things but how we as parent's handle things- i am still learning but i think i have a lot to offer others out there and by any means i am no expert. i am working through a program where i become a certified parent coach- i do not have much to go- i did take some time off otherwise I probably would have been done by now but my goal is to be done by the end of May -if not sooner. can not wait to help parents that don't know what the next step is-you are not alone out there parents

Lately

Marcus has been questioned by peers where his dad is and why he does not have one. well- of course that got me thinking as well- of did I do the right thing in adopting this child with out a dad in the picture- hold on before you all get out of whack- that moment fleeted quickly- there are times when a husband would have come in handy but honestly this I believe is how it was meant to be for those rough times- I honestly do not believe a marriage would have handled it well- oh where is your faith Michele- oh its there I am just being honest here. so he has been praying very specifically for a dad to come into his life-
which is great for me too-
I am thankful for the men he has in his life who have a great influence on him- and Marcus loves each of them very much- as he said the other day to me I love whomever he was mentioning but its not the same as having a dad around all the time. I said I get it- and of course he followed up with but mom I am ok with just you too.
life is good and I am enjoying my time with him- biking walking and now me beginning to run ever so slowly- I feel good- we are in a good place and I know it will keep getting better and better.

I love this season

Bernie talked about seasons last night and right now my season with my son is amazing- I love the change in him and I love the relationship I have with him now- he is an amazing young man- oh no he is not always amazing just this morning I was complaining about him talking back to me. but i can deal with that - i love that - he is not the same he is forever changed and I know that it is just his age.

We are also in track season in which I love - I love to watch him run- I love the people involved in running it and I love the fact it is an extended family- our track family- check out the website
http://runningtigers.com/ the coaches are awesome and great mentors for Marcus- Gig is one of the coaches with the team and he was instrumental in our life changing experience last year- forever grateful for that. Marcus enjoys running and I so enjoy watching him run- and I know I am the mom so I can say I think he is pretty good- and he did not get that from me - now if he swam it is possible. LOL. and it also gets me out on the track to walk I try and get 2--3 miles in and one day I may run a little bit :)

This is a busy time- track practice 3 times a week- Wednesday and Sunday Church- meets on Saturday or practice- all through the month of June or July- its a good thing a good good thing

God can do anything

Sometimes we often forget about how God can do anything- we must keep pursuing Him- daily- hourly, minutely, secondly )meaning every second)
Trust is so important when you have giving your life over to Him- often time we give our lives over to Him yet still try to do things all on our own- why do we do that? guilty here too- so keep trusting Him- I have been reminded lately to continue to seek after Him- there is an area in my life right now that I truly need to trust Him in- He has it under control- He reminds often to not be discouraged and that He does hear my hearts cry- and that it is time just His time - but get ready- I am ready and waiting for His time- soon I hope :)
He can do anything- just trust in Him and wait ( i know easier said then done)

Appreciation

Since my mom died I have learned to appreciate things even more- my family my friends- my job my life-
We often get busy in life and forget to appreciate what we have and the people around us in our lives that make our life special-
I can not imagine life without the friends that I have now- they mean more to me now then ever- I appreciate them for accepting me for who I am and that I am always trying to change and become the person God wants me to become.
I look at things a little different - I see the hope in all circumstances- I look for the miracles in things no matter how small they may appear- I laugh I cry -
I tend to me more sensitive to the hurts of what others are going through- praying for them and letting them know they are not alone.
So appreciate what you do have and not what you don't - you never know what tomorrow will bring- I know who holds tomorrow and I know He is there no matter what.
I love my family and friends very much and appreciate them more now then ever- so thank you family and friends for your love and being a part of my life- for I am truly blessed by the impact you have in my life

Godwill

ok so I have a Goodwill right by my house and see it everyday- and yes frequently shop it- I love the jeans I get there. Anyway for the last month the one "O" is not lit up- so normally God and I have a conversation and over the last several weeks that sign says Godwill. What will He do- Anything for all things are possible
That job you have been seeking after God will provide, the wayward child God will bring home, that spouse that causes issues God will take care of him/her.
Godwill provide our needs as a family. Marcus and I have been praying and I am often reminded of God will- my question then is when. God tells me it does not matter when just know I will.

So I am fortunate of that constant reminder on the way home (hoping the one "O" never gets fixed) that God will make a way- for whatever your need is.

Keep praying and keep pressing in- cause God will always be there