Its time- well I am actually typing this Thursday night- but it will not post til Friday am-
what am i thinking right now- i am not sure - life for Marcus and I will change as of today (Friday)
you see after long time of prayer- therapy sessions- discussions with the drs and behavioral specialists- Marcus is going to a residential facility today- he will be admitted and thankfully my sister will be with me- I know this is the right decision- I have done all I can and need additional help with Marcus- am I sad yes I am- I will miss him horrible- and I am happy yes he will begin the healing process that I can not help him with and he will learn coping mechanism for the desired behaviors- we are on the road to recovery now- he will become the young man God has created him to be-
I am anxious I am ... fill in the blank I think I have had every emotion possible through this process- but you know I have grown a lot and will continue to grow- God has been right beside me as I have traveled this road- well beside me - in front of me - carrying me-
Fortunately - God has placed amazing amazing people in our lives to be the support we so much need- I love God for that and I love the people in our lives - and I know I often drive them crazy-
This is a time for healing not only for Marcus but for me- time to take care of me- and I know people will get on my case if I do not- Hey I still want to do the triathlon in the summer- so now no excuse- time to get in shape for me- time for me- and when Marcus returns home - he will have an improved mom as well
He is not going to far- just to Bradenton- does not take too long to get there and people from the south will be able to come visit him as well ( my parents and friends from Lift Church)
So yes a new chapter begins - a new beginning - help me Lord to make it through!
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