If it is not one thing it is another

So I do not say much about my job that often except it is good- I still love what I do - however the last few weeks it has become very stressful- not enough hours in the work day to get things done- we are short staffed and I am trying to do many things at one time- I need to take a step back and refocus and not get so over anxious about things there- I need to prioitize all though everything is important that needs attending to there. Hmm dilemma.
My problem is I think about it off hours and get more anxious- not a good thing-
In fact last night I went back to work after hours which for me is hard because what do you do with Marcus- well thankfully Adam had some time ( it was good for Marcus one on one time with Uncle Adam) anyway- I went back and got a bunch of things done in an hour and half of being there- hmm quiet no distruptions - I still have a few things to get caught up with and still feeling a little anxious about work but hopefully this week will be better- praying for 2 more people to come to our facility- so we can get things done actually during the day-
I do not mind coming back to get things accomplished however I prefer those days are few and far between.
Will you agree with me in prayer for staff? 2 people would be great- God is the God of possibilities!

Paying for the day off on Monday

Well let me just say when Marcus' schedule gets screwed up it messes up everything- he has been way out of whack the last several days- he was volatile in the car on Tuesday hence losing the privilege of track- sorry coaches- and today was a little better but the disrespect and the whiny attitude has got to go- he lost privileges tonight and proceeded to act out in service- so I am doing my deep breathing and trying not to hold on to the actions of his day today- breathe in breathe out

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10....Breathe

Memorial Day part 2

We went to our good friends the Garlands- they play a significant roll in Marcus' success and me keeping my sanity- I love the Garlands- they had a cook out and the kids were able to go swimming- great relaxing time

The best part of it was when I kept up and "beat" a teenager ( 20 years younger ) swimming across the pool- oh I am sure I will pay for it - and I do have witnesses.

This is Jordan the teenager I beat swimming waHoo!

Again as always- for Memorial Day- we salute those who have served and those who have lost their life defending our country- the Danielsons are so proud of all those who serve

Memorial Day- part 1

The reason for part 1 is because this is my thoughts on Memorial Day- It is a time to think of those who have gone on before us- I am thankful for those who have served in the military- my family members have served and so thankful for fighting for our freedom.

So thank you to all of our military for the many sacrifices you take on

My thoughts also go to my family who have already passed on - I often think of my grandparents- it has been just under 9 years since I have had no grandparents alive- I do wish they could have seen me graduate college- or adopt my son- or yes eventually get married- Oh I know others out there have lost there grandparents-before accomplishing things- so you hope they would be proud of the person you have become.

So Nana- Pap pap - Grandma- and Grandpa- I miss you all

Memorial Day part 2 will come later this evening

Track meet today in Tampa at Jefferson High

We had a meet today- Marcus was running in the group that is 2 levels higher then him- there was a mistake with registering but it is ok he had fun and did pretty well with the older boys
I so enjoy these meets- he makes me proud-and he is so funny with his actions there- he wants to be first in the worst way - he will get there- someday- maybe next year when we are involved the whole season- he loves it and loves the meets-I savor these moments because I enjoy them so much and it is such a wonderful change As you see I have turned into a red racoon- sunscreen did happen after the fact

Running the 100m

Running the 200m

I AM still here

I have not written this week- so sorry- work is kicking me tired and it is crazy- Hopefully today will be a bit better so tonight or tomorrow I will write more of what is going on in my world
Another busy day today and this evening- hopefully bed to early tonight - so looking forward to the 3 day weekend

Refreshed

Wow- I am refreshed and really soaking it in now after the phenomenal day in the presence of the Lord- I am actually sitting here with tears in my eyes thinking on how good God is and knows exactly what we need to hear in our life- Thankful for pastors that are obedient to God.

Grumpy children are not fun

Well Marcus woke up with a bad attitude- this morning and it continues on- he had track practice and did not do what he was suppose to do as far as what his coach asked him to do - me personally he would have done it again until he did it-

so what did I make him do when I got home the stuff he needed to do at practice- he made the commitment

okay well I started this post earlier today and am finishing it at 923 pm- well the last 3 days+ Marcus has had rough days- could not understand why until today when he said mommy my tummy is hurting and how long has this been going on - you guessed it 3+ days- I AM NOT A MIND READER- why can kids not understand that. oh and he is lactose intolerant and has been having milk products at aftercare- hmmm- I guess I will have to reinforce the no milk products for him - nothing- it really tears up his insides.

I told him if he is not feeling well-he needs to tell me so I can help him sooner rather then waiting 3 days. eesh

Off Day

Have you ever had a day that was good and then the evening went south- nothing has happened I am just having a rough evening for some reason- no issues with Marcus he is asleep- just moment of too quiet-Feeling anxious about something not sure what-
I have too much to do tomorrow and do not want to do it- shopping - Track practice- vet- cleaning the house- somedays I wish I had 2 or 3 of me to get things done- I feel behind in the house work-class on Tuesday I think are catching up to me along with the late nights I am awake and the early mornings- please tell me I am not alone - anyone else feel this way at times?
I need a vacation and I think all I will get this summer is time at kids camp-
just a weekend- or a maid- hmmm

Track Meet

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What it is to be a mom

First let me say Happy Mother's Day to my mom- thanks mom for being there when I need you- thank you for your encouraging words and just supporting me in all I do-

I love the post by PD over at her blog www.deannashrodes.com it was titled Real Moms.

What it is to be a mom-
For me: since becoming a mom- life has dramatically changed over the years we have pretty much been in a valley- oh yes we have had mountain top times but as a mom most of it has been valley times- dealing with a child with a lot of baggage and not knowing what has truly happened is mind boggling and exhausting physically- you do not know where to turn with professionals and you do not know at times how to cope with volatile outbursts that could cause you harm-
For me being a mom was truly a chosen opportunity by God- my Faith has grown- my trust in Him has deepened- My perseverance is mind boggling for me- why- cause many times I could have given up - however we have a Savior that never gives up on us so how could I give up on my son? We are still climbing out of the valley but I feel in my heart the mountain top is clearer and closer-
We have found new doctors- that have helped more then ever before- that have a plan and are working through the plan with us-we have found something where Marcus can focus - feel apart of -and channel his energy- over the course of the past few weeks life has been the calmest ever - ever-stress level has come way down at home- the calm room has not had to be used- which is a miracle in itself- when asked to change his words or attitudes the change has happened sooner rather then a long drawn out time-
I am full of pride for Marcus this weekend- he did so well -and he enjoyed his track so much- I am so thankful for God providing this outlet for him- and who knows maybe you know the next Olympian-

I am thankful for being a real mom- one who has to figure out every detail- one who has to rely on me to figure things out and no production crews- I am thankful I am not the only real mom out there- I am thankful for the real moms in my life-

I am thankful for an ever loving God- to guide me in this life long journey of being a mom- He is my strength- He is my guide- Thank you God for helping me persevere on this life's journey of motherhood

Short clip of the last run of the day-

Marcus is all the way to the right

Run Marcus RUN and pick your....

seat too- well today was a good day a good day indeed- tiring but I had fun and it brought back my swim meet days- although swimming was so much cooler-

Here are some pictures of the meet- he did really well- YES all the way around behavior too-

So glad its Friday

Ok - long day at work but a good day

so after work and school today Marcus and I headed out to get my finger nails fixed and my finger nails painted- yes I do take my son with me - we bond- over what- he chooses the color I wear and the design on the nails- it is fun- he actually enjoys picking the colors- last time it was purple and this time a very bright orange- very bright so get your sunglasses out- well it goes with tomorrow their colors are black and orange so it works out well.

(not mine) then we went to get our hair cut he got his done to- they did a nice job on it- much better the me they even put a little lie or something on it. stopped in Target for a brief few things for tomorrow and now he is in bed and I am fixin to gather up the stuff-

I will post about the day tomorrow - pray that it goes well- that he stays in his lane - that he does well and most importantly - okay second on importance he has a good time and he also behaves

oh he did give me something he made at school- I will take a picture of it and post another day

Day by Day

Well it has been a few days since my last post- work has been crazy busy with staff out sick and me in surgery (not me personally) but I was the anesthesiologist for them- early days and long ones- so glad the rest of the week is a little calmer-
So Marcus has had decent days at home and school and childcare- although yesterday he got a write up because of pushing a teacher and trying to run off and today at school he pushed a child down and threatened a child- other then that it is good- he still gets angry and he is working hard on using the tools we have been given

I am taking a class on Tuesday nights as well for challenging behavior- so our Tuesdays are crazy- and tiring-

Tonight was a good thing- Marcus was having a moment and ran out for RR to the parking lot (not the good thing) however Commander Rob said Code Blue (which is our word) and he went to the bathroom- he then was calm went back to class and then he did not get what he wanted and ran out of the room and Marcus went directly to the bathroom ( although Commander Rob thought he went outside) He is fast when it comes to running - so he calmed down and was able to return to class after talking with Mr Tom- I love having it work out and a plan coming together- this is a BIG step for Marcus- although I did tell him to make sure when he feels like he is getting angry he lets them know where he is going.

{SIGH} Progress is good

Marcus practicing

This is not the best quality but some of it is good- this is practice the other day- I will be sure to get some hopefully closer stuff when the meets occur-He is in the red shirt