What a week

This was one of my projects I did- Marcus' room- I sure hope he likes it

Hmm- Marcus was at mom and dad's this week- it was nice to get done with projects that have been on the back burner for so long- so those are done Marcus comes home tomorrow- he has not too bad- better then previous times but still has work to do on his goals when not at home-

Anyway- so looking forward to my stacation next week- I need it after the week I have had at work- I am exhausted- We have a ladies night tonight and it will be nice to go and be with adults-

I forgot what hanging with adults was like until this past week- it was nice very nice-

If you are a single parent- or any parent adult time is so essential to keeping your sanity- highly advise it

Shh.... It's me Clarence

Hey it is me Clarence- shh I have taken over my human mom's computer- she leaves it downstairs so I thought I would flip it open and begin pawing it- she is in this mode of getting projects done- Marcus not being here she is able to - and I am so glad she finally finished the project of the banisters- I never thought I would get my patio back- I do have to say they turned out not too bad-even though she did drop some paint on the floor- good thing its easy to clean up.

You know she thinks she runs the house but I actually do- ok no I don't- I know I should get off here before she ... uh oh uh oh I have been caught got to run or waddle upstairs ( I really need to excercise more-)

Well- I see the cat has taken over- Clarence I need to change my password-

Yes indeed I got the banister done- yeah- Marcus is in Venice through Saturday and then we are on vacation-just staying around town- looking for child care- going to Drs appts- the zoo- movies- and not sure what else.

You are doing good mom

Those were the words out of Marcus' therapist mouth yesterday- he said it a few times- we both are baffled with the fact that he knows what to do and can not take what he has learned outside the house- you see he does know what to do and can repeat it back to you word for word-
and the good thing is that he has met some of his goals since February- which I really did not look at until we went back over them yesterday- he does not hit me anymore- he has his anger control doing very well at home and he has not says he hates me- except once in 5 months- so I was like yes there is progress and Marcus was able to see the progress he has made to - which helps his confidence- Marcus made his goals- we did not have any input except one-so if you are reading in blog land- lets help to reach these goals with him- he has 3 months to continue working with his current therapist- love him- he does well with Marcus and Marcus likes him a lot- which is good- we came to the conclusion that maybe leaving his last childcare facility was a good thing- a blessing in disguise. For several reasons- safety- he was one of the oldest - and there was just something not connecting with the teacher that had him- Marcus made a statement of him not liking her- which for him is odd- he usually likes everyone. So the search is on and Marcus is responsible for finding care. okay well here is his goals for the next 3 months.
1. Not to say No
2. Not to say I won't
3. I will use my anger control
4. I need to calm down
5. I will not talk back
6. I will stay in daycare
7. I will attend counseling
These are goals for outside the home environment so- to all those involved in his life please hold him accountable- he signed his treatment plan so he has an obligation to reach his goals

Ok so I know I complained and stress about losing childcare- sorry for those who had to hear it- but God showed me I answered your prayer just not in the way you wanted me too- you see childcare was expensive and actually not sure how I was going to afford it well - many blessing have occurred because of him being terminated - yes I was disappointed however God has it all in control if I just allow Him to be.

Life is full of disappointments

well this is the topic of our Wednesday night service- and for me that is what I am facing- I know God has a plan in all I - we have been through- I know I keep saying that- now maybe I need to really believe it- I do not know how many of you have a child with special needs- Marcus' needs is a bit different then what you think his is emotional behavioral disability- my concern is yes I know what to do however who else will do what is needed to help him- he is the one who knows what to do as well hejust does not want to and makes me sad and disappointed- I think why do I keep trying if he does not want to do it-

I am taking my disappointments to God- and leaving it to Him

Ok enough of the dreary mood- I would like to share some pictures with you all



Jodi and I at my 20 year HS reunion- Ken was my prom date our Senior year

Kevin and Barbara (worked in guidance with her) Amy -Kristen we were in band together
Rick I have known since 1st grade



These photos are from Downtown Disney the weekend of July 4th

Up to Date

Ok life has been a whirlwind and hoping things will calm soon-

Marcus was terminated from the last child care facility the week of the 6th so I was scrambling again- long story short- he got angry threw somehting hit teacher in face caused bruise- end of time there- so we were yet again looking for child care however- the wonderful friends and family I have - have stepped up-so this week Kirsti is watching and next week through Wednesday Mom and Dad- not sure after that mom may come here- the problem is he has Drs appt each week until the week of August 5th so I have to have him here for that-

I am off the week of the 27th so I will be searching for care yet again

Our caseworker was here yesterday and we talked and I told her I just do not know what to do- he says he know what to do yet does not do it- because he does not want to- we are at slim pickings for childcare- so his counselor and her think (me too) we need to take the next level of care and have the therapist come once a week to the house or child care or school- to his environment- if that does not work he will go in residential care- so I am at my wits end with fiugring him out and such- I know though I have help and they know my concerns- i voiced them over many times in our meeting- I can only help him so much

My 20 year reunion from high school was last week and thea twas fun- nice to see friends I have not seen in years- time was short and would have loved to see others that were unable to make

it

I really do have to say I am tired of working with Marcus- even when speaking to him with our caseworker he blurted out exactly what he needed to do yet does not want to do it- I do not get it- do not get it at all- you say you want to change and you have all the tools yet you do not do it- even baffling the healh care providers- well on to the next step in home therapist which would go to the house - school- child care weekly- if this does not work then the next step inpatient placement-

Give me strength for each new day God- there are days where I wonder if my prayers are just bouncing off the ceiling- oh I know He is there- it is just frustrating and tiring when you work so hard to help someone.

wow

ok it has been many days since I have written- I will take time this evening to fill you in on the latest saga of the Danielson household- please keep us in prayer as the main saga is we need child care again for Marcus- the right one- if I had the funds I would open my own for behaviorally challenged kids- anyway praying for the one God has for us- thankful for friends who have stepped up - gotta love the fact or friends and family willing to help in our need

Bumpy ride

Well this past week has been a bumpy ride- not sure what is going on - but Marcus has gone from being angry to crying to happy all within minutes of each other- his anger control is not happening- I have a call into the Drs office- so we shall see what happens and what they suggest cause this is crazy- he cried over no ketchup yesterday at camp

Keep him in your prayers cause it is iffy at summer camp- he needs to get his act together-

not sure if this is good news or not His MRI came back normal- yeah- although then that means it is all behavioral-

Still waiting for the EEG results from yesterday-