so in january of 2011 the journey began - i took marcus to bradenton and there he stayed til july 1st- it was a long 5 months but we made it through- there really was no change in behavior until april- when a light bulb went off and he changed his heart and forgave his foster dad - apparently their was abuse going on in which we suspected but it all came out in therapy- I would travel once a week until april for therapy and visits- then he began to earn the privilege of time away from the facility- the transformation was phenomenal- he was making a difference- no aggression- he realized how he needed to cope - he learned how to cope- he learned what triggers it and how he triggers me. he coped - i saw it could not believe it- he was on the right meds and he was calm- other issues were taken care of when he was there as well- it was phenomenal again- how awesome God is. you see I was not there 24 /7 so i had no idea what was going on- i had to trust God with marcus- He reminded me often during those times- do you trust me - of course- i had no reason but to trust Him-
he came home pretty much every weekend since the April time frame- and when he finally came home in July - he was a different child- so different- so much fun so much fun- he was enjoyable to be around - we have laughed so much more- no signs of aggression except 2x of which he was very tired. so not bad for the last year and half- not bad at all
he went from being in the EBD program at school to being placed in regular classes in january 2012- and stayed there through the rest of the year. he also finished elementary school and is now in middle school in regular classes and in AP math- my miracle child - amazing he really is
he has a servants heart- wants to help people- his quote for this past weekend was this mom I am going to adopt 5 children so I can change their lives like you changed mine- then my 5 children will adopt 5 children so they can change those children's lives and soon with all the kids our family adopts we will solve the problem of having children to adopt (he was talking about in the state of Florida) - I love how he thinks- one person does make a difference-
i often have questioned how am i doing - i often have questioned why God me- I often have questioned where would he be if he was not mine?- i oftened have questioned how could i be so lucky so blessed - i often have questioned how did i make it through- i often have questioned- why did i not give up-
you see it was a battle and we won- i have done well (still question at times now with different things) why me cause God knew i would be stubborn enough to not give up on what His plan was- that i do not quit i keep persevering and keep persevering- i keep going- God knew that i would sit and smile after all the hard times and say wow- I made it through because God gave me the strength he gave me the friends and family to stand with me - why did i not give up- because God has a purpose for marcus- whether it be a Olympic track star- whether it be a police officer- whether it be a missionary - whether it be a dad that just wants to change other kids lives - God knew God knew what He needed and he knew we would not be defeated
Marcus is a joy he is so much fun- and I love how he asks questions - ok some of them i have no idea- and i have to ask for help during those times-
you see we went through a lot a lot- and this is just the minimal story- it was ugly to go through but we finally saw the light at the end of the very long tunnel and it is so bright now so very bright
do you need a miracle God will make a way- keep believing keep pressing on keep pursuing Him
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