Change in Schedule not Good for ME not Good for HIM

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Okay Breathe in Breathe out
I really am pulling my hair out right now-really I am- you see I anticipated issues today with Marcus but his attitude and disobedience is down right stressful- ugh- he does not do well with changes in his schedule - I knew it I anticipated it- but come on really how hard is to apologize to a child ( he stepped on someones glasses because he was pushed) how hard is it to listen when I ask him to walk - instead I get nails in my arm- how hard is to follow directions if you really want to do something- oh I know for Marcus today this afternoon he was over load may day may day- sinking ship sinking ship- I tried to cope breathing well- but kicking seats telling me what he was going to do andnot going to do and he was going NOW to the harvest festival- Right- you see we are not there- we did not make it to BQ practice- sentence writing and Memory verse writing- (thanks PD and PL- I use this a lot) . He knows the ones on obedience cause he has to write them-
so I ask him to get in the shower 6 times aggravation level is up right now cause he was NOT LISTENING - but it is good I am venting my frustrations- Anyone have chocolate - sugar free?
okay I think I am good I will blog really what I was going to write tonight a little later if I stay awake - last night I was in bed by 8:30 and asleep not long after.

The wind was blowing

Where did the weekend go- let me catch you up to speed- I think I wrote about Friday

Saturday had a game did well then went to see Lori, Stacy and the kids- just hung out for a few hours nothing special- Marcus was missing his aunt and uncle so I surprised him with a visit-

Sunday was good- Pastor T and Miss Misty said Marcus was the best behaved boy in children's church - made me so proud-

I taught Jr Jam- 3, 4, and 5 year olds during service- they are so fun- we talked about Moses and the burning bush and how he needed to STOP, LOOK, and LISTEN to GOD and follow what he said.

I was all High tech with a power point and all and let me just say- the kids knew the story backwards and forwards by the end of service - When I teach we have play time- praise and worship time teaching time and usually craft time- it is fun and the best thing of all was that - 5 children 5 lives accepted Jesus in their heart. YEAH FOR JESUS!! I love it

So bring us to Monday- work was great we had surgery except my pig had some issues during surgery was not sure if she was going to make it through the surgery or not- she did yeah-

Marcus had a good day at school- I am so thankful for Lake Myrtle- I am truly blessed, I am truly thankful for his teacher and his behavioral specialist.

So today is Tuesday- came home from work had Marcus work on his HW and I worked on the bike- it was windy and rainy but I was determined to get the bike done so we could go for a bike ride- I have lost 7 lbs since I have started to watch what I eat - oh from time to time I splurge- now it is time to get consistent on the excercise -- I have been doing stomach crunches while watching tv for the last 3 weeks - I was so excited when I went to the store and the usual size I get was too big-yeah! So with biking 3-4 times a week the lbs should come off a little easier.

So we were able to bike 2 miles in the wind and rain and Marcus did great - he kept up so well- this is how he kept up -

Believe or not I feel to good right now- I was so tired at work in the afternoon but now I feel good-

TA DAAAAAAAAA

Okay Fridays I am beginning to not like- why you ask- because byt Friday Marcus is a big bear GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr

He wanted to do things his way but in the end he did not get to because he was not following my directions. Anyway he went to bed-

and guess what with in 5 minutes Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

SO he is asleep- I am blogging then I am going to go clean- dishes laundry vaccuum- oh yes I run the vaccuum when he is asleep- how else will I get things done- he sleeps through just about everything

okay are you ready - are you chopping at the bit- can you not wait any longer - here I am -

do I look smart now??

It is a good day

Today was a pretty good day-Nothing abnormal happened- I got a phone call from Marcus' teacher nothing major just wanted to touch base with me.
He was a little difficult after school so we ended up not going to BQ today for practice- I could see he was tired he has a look about him-It has taken me 2 years but I know his tired look- and his tired cry. I oftened wonder how parents know of newborns to determine what is wrong- I had to learn it too and still are.
His latest thing is too lie about things- not sure why- is it a stage- he says he lies because he does not want consequences- of course I remind him now the consequence is more because he lied about what he did or did not do.
Will he learn? Yes-
Not sure how many of you have read about the person who adopted the child and now is relinguisah him back- Marcus has problems even threw stuff at me when he first moved in, has hit me but I would never relinguish him back- I know I do not know the whole story - I am sure there is so much more to the story-I know the child tried to hurt her badly. So I am not going to judge her I will just say how I feel- DO I agree with what DCF does -no- do I agree with how Marcus was treated or the fact I was lied to about it- no - I do believe as a parent and chose to be a parent it is my responsibility to get the help my child needs regardless if he was in the states custody. I signed the papers I choose to find him help when he needs it- put him on meds if he needs it- Can you tell I am a little passionate about this?There are wonderful people and professionals out there that can help you- but you as a parent need to search them out- I did- I am glad - we would probably still be back where we started if we did not go to see them- consistency- constant reiforcement- help from others- lots of love and understanding-
Okay I know I may not be making sense but I am just getting my thoughts out that may be rnay be random

Taking the plunge

Okay I did it - I finally made up my mind to do it- I am beginning to bike Monday, Tuesday and Friday Evenings with Marcus in tow ( he is working on it) Why- well- I need to excercise and I need to stop saying how tired I am - yes today I was tired we were in surgeries today and it was tiring - but I made the commitment to myself - I will bike atleast 3 days a week- sit ups ever night- take my vitamins- not let little things get me down- focus on what God has planned and part of it was the commitment to better myself-

So in months to come hopefully you will see a slimmer me- watching what I eat and excercising- I need to be able to keep up with Marcus and I will not be able to do that at the rate I am going. Anyway - it felt good- oh it was hot and I was sweaty when we came in but it was a good feeling- so Marcus will be in top shape between biking and soccer

Marcus does listen to people and I just want to say to Dustin- you can relay this to him PD- he remembered what you said about how if people are mean to you to say Jesus loves you- he did not do it but he remembers it and he said he would work on it-

Marcus had a pretty good day- he did not do his time out at school when his teacher requested it (he had to do it with the behavioral specialist out of his classroom) - so I pulled out the JBQ book and asked him this question. How should we regard our school teachers, policemen, and other government officials.

The answer- We should obey them for their authority comes from God-( did he get it right Leslie? ) I had him write it and then we talked more about it.

Stop using the Crutch

Do not worry if you do not understand the reason I titled it that - it is okay and God is so in control. We had a very good service this morning- I say that because personally I had a very good service and really realized when the devil showed up in my son as soon as we were home- I love him to pieces that boy of mine.

For those of you who read my blog just pray for me over the next month about what God spoke to me about- it is a step process and I just want to be obedient- stop using the crutch Michele.

He is taking me way out of my comfort zone- It will be good cause it will be a God thing- I will share more but can not right now. Just pray that is all.

Soccer, Sleep, Cleaning, Shopping

I tried all S's but I am not that talented to think of it.

We had an 8 am soccer game- wow that is early on a Saturday but it was good- they played hard- and had a tie game even though we do not keep score- I like the league but have it has a few quirks about it- I will discuss that at later date.

Game home about 9;30-10 and Marcus went to sleep for 3 hours - he needed it- he was looking a little tired at the end of the game.

So we came home he went to sleep I worked on laundry-cleaning the house- and took a little nap myself- it was nice- then we got up and went to the new target- I think it is much bigger then the one by the house- seems more organized but then again it just opened. then we went grocery shopping- my least favorite things to do- I just do not like it-

We had fun though - I had Marcus standing on the bar right below you push and I was racing through the store- people thought I was crazy but Marcus was laughing hysterically and that is all that matter- he was a big help- he helped put the groceries in the cart and in the car and then helped unload them when we were home-

He looked a little off and I asked him what was up- mommy I am tired I said I thought so- you go play with your computer and I will get dinner ready- simple dinner so he can get rest- he finished dinner and got a shower and within 5 minutes of being in bed in was a sleep- fresh air excercise and grocery shopping will wear a boy out.

So it has been quiet - I am just finishing things up so I can study my lesson for Sunday School tomorrow-