You are weird and silly

these were the words from Marcus yesterday evening after coming home from working at the church ( so glad he likes to help) we went to target to pick up a printer ( mine died) and ice cream - ( you thought I gave him the world) anyway we ok me was very tired and in a silly mood- so I was running and skipping and flying on the cart-all the meanwhile Marcus is laughing anssaying I am weird and silly- atleast he is not embarrassed, yet. so then I see a price scanner and try to scan his arm- no price on him he is priceless- again I am so silly-
we had to get home it had been a long day and so flying on the cart again through the parking lot- he just shook his head and laughed-

so ice cream was ate- teeth brushed-prayers done and then a zerbert on his face- again I was silly- yep I am and those were precious moments-

Hope your day is full of weirdness and sillyness

Reflection day

ok so we talked about how God is faithful and never changes, always there last night at church- He is always there- never changing-no matter what we have been through or are going through-
some may ask you don't know what is like to go through what i have been through- you are right i don't know and i may not understand but in the same sense you may not know what i have been through- ( you can read my blog - back) so let me give you a brief synopsis of my life in the last 6 + years -

2005- Marcus moved in- adopted in November- multiple child care facilities
2006 surgery on my knee- Marcus began seeing psychiatrist and psychologist- suffering from PTSD and ADHD- and any other initials- multiple child care facilities
2007- still seeing Drs and changing meds multiple times- multiple child care facilities
2008- Marcus baker acted first time- for being excessively aggressive - causing bruises on my legs and then having major meltdown in hospital- to the point the medical staff was sweating and asking me how come he has not been there before
2009 Marcus baker acted 2 more times this year- multiple child care facilities
2010 baker acted multiple times in October - December- time to get extra help ( he had threatened at one time to kill me and wish I was dead)
2011 January baker acted one more time before leaving for 5 months- God made a way proved faithful

June 2011 released from residential facility a month early then anticipated-
I look back on those previous years and say wow wow how did I survive- in August my mom died which was unanticipated-and last night at service I was reminded through a song PD sang - see the highlighted words which really spoke to me last night

In my moments of fear
Through every pain every tear
There's a God whose been faithful to me
When my strength was all gone
And When my heart it had no song
Still He was faithful to me
Every word He promised, is true
Oh yes it is
And What I thought was impossible
I see my God do

Chorus:
He's been faithful, faithful to me (He's been faithful)
Looking back Your love and mercy I see (mercy I see)
In my heart I question You're there and I fail to believe
But You've been faithful (faithful), (faithful) faithful to me

When my heart looked away
The many times I could not pray
Still In love, He proved faithful to me (faithful)

you see i can not change what had happened over the last several years- and there is a reason we went through it all- Marcus is so much fun now- oh he is a boy with a smart mouth but that is just it a smart mouth and no aggression- God knew what He was doing - why do we doubt
I learned of what unconditional love and sacrifice really meant during this time and how much I truly need to trust God- I love Marcus more today then when I first adopted him-
Marcus is a world changer - I can see it- God has a plan and I get to be a part of the amazing plan he has for him-

Marcus tells me often he wants to be a missionary and reach kids for Jesus- can you imagine his testimony- Look at what God can do- for nothing is impossible
I just sit an think about how amazing God is and how He has given me this opportunity as a mom -if not but for God and God alone- thank you Lord for your faithfulness for your hand in all of our lives - allow us to be used by you in a mighty way- You are truly Awesome

thankful

ok I know my writing is not as often as it use to be - i apologize- not a lot a drama in life lately
although- work has been interesting- learning a lot through a situation- it is a good learning experience.
anyway, so what has been on my mind - not much - just very thankful

i am working on organizing and getting back on track on a couple of things- i need to get one of my tasks done- just need to get it done and make the time

loving teaching Sunday School again - i was just filling in but I love it - also loving teaching kidzone jr- I teach the same lesson as kidzone but in a way they can understand scaling it back but still the same message. its fun but oh my so tiring- i love to see the kids light up when they get it- they are smart cookies i have in there

marcus is getting ready to start track on Saturday the 25th - can not wait :) missed it last year- other then that all is quiet-

Oh my so bad with writing

ok so what has been happening- well we finished our fast with church and i learned a lot - somethings I learned - and keep learning- not to be discouraged all in His hands, eating the right things are good for you and the fast was timely for changing my eating habits - I can live without Chocolate Peanut Butter ice cream and will survive. As a family we bonded more cause Marcus was praying more and he was seeing in himself how God can work

THe month of fasting for him- he went down to 2 meds- went into mainstream classes- was on honor roll and we have gone to once a month therapy- wow He is so good to us

Yesterday we went to the fair with the Tobias Family- it was Marcus' first trip and the boy is definately a city boy- we walked into the animal section (my favorite) and he was like whew it stinks in here. I need to get him into the country more- he needs to muck some stalls at Papaws over spring break (hint hint dad)- we had a good time, i love seeing things through the eyes of a child

Saturday thoughts in the am

my writing may be a little vague so bear with me-

Have you ever had a dream that seemed so real and when you woke up you were disappointed that it was just a dream.

well I had a dream like that last night- been praying much about what the dream was about and maybe it was a dream to come true. that is my prayer.

Seeking what God has for us and believing it to come. Sometimes I am in amazement at all God has done for us- why should I be surprised? Idk- His word is true.

Trusting him is such a powerful thing- Keep believing!

Potpourri of thoughts

sometimes we have to wait- and wait some more for things to come our way- sometimes it is not our timing but God's. i know that is always been a challenge for me- waiting on Him- i tend to want it now- but when i have learned to wait on Him- His way is so much sweeter. so whatever you are going through you will make it just wait- He has it all timed out

another though going in my head thanks to a friend from church is- if we have the love of God in our hearts why don't we act the way we should- you know if you see a need meet the need- sometimes we get so caught up in ourselves and our issues we forget to look at the big picture and follow Christ's example and meeting the people's needs-

Have you met someone elses need today- don't let an opportunity by to spread His love