if only they knew- well not really

i surely was blessed this evening when one of the mom's told me- marcus is one of the sweetest young men out here- oh it makes me smile so big- what an amazing compliment-

thank you Lord for bringing us through and the future keeps getting brighter and brighter

i am over the top proud

i am not sure who was more excited for marcus - him or me- why because i have seen so much potential in his running and this weekend he had the best run ever in his track career- i don't know maybe it's the competitive person in me or the fact i so believe in his abilities and believe God gave him the ability.

marcus and i often talk about that God has an amazing plan for his life- and i so enjoy being his mom-so blessed i am. so thankful for that young man- i beam as his mom-

this year in school he has made me proud - honor roll all year- walks to school- does chores when not even asked- so helpful- as i type it brings tears of joy to my eyes-

if you ever feel like giving up on something or someone - DON'T- never give up on a person never give up on yourself- your dreams - you just never know when the breakthrough will come - you will be amazed -

i love when i get compliments of what a well behaved young man he is- i smile on the inside bigger then anyone knows just knowing where we were before- and yes i am patting myself on the back because i think i have done a great job raising him- he loves God- loves his momma- is respectful- does what he is asked to do (most of the time) - honor roll- and the list goes on- can you imagine if i gave up when it was the worst- i would not be able to see the best ( which keeps getting better and better)

yes i love that boy-

my thoughts

so this is my blog so i can write my thoughts and what goes on with my life and my son's life- so here they are today

we begin discussing a topic in which no one wants to talk about but it is a necessary topic- marcus and i had a discussion about if something ever happened to me who would he choose to live with- michele what kind of topic is that to discuss with a child- well its reality and i want him to have a say in it- you see as a single mom i need to be prepared- we are not promised of tomorrow so i plan for today. plus if i do not put it in to place he will be appointed by the state and i will not allow him to go back into foster care - (i know they are not all bad)

so he chose 3 people and i chose 3 people and they were the exact same 3. love how that works- and they all agree that they would take him if necessary - love it and love those people

ok so- we had a track meet yesterday- was not the greatest of runs but had a really good accomplishment- marcus and i were in discussion about his 1st run and he started to get an attitude and such and i just was not going to discuss it with him- i told him go get some powerade and chill in the shade- i walked away-  so he did that all huffin and puffin and came and found me a few minutes later- mom can we talk - yep sure can- sorry mom did not mean to get an attitude with you- its ok just be careful son and we will be fine- he was like i was nervous and ... ok well now your nerves are gone lets be focused and not cop an attitude when we talk- yes maam :)
it was such a hot and long day then he went to run his last event and he was tripped and hit is knee into his chin- i knew something was not quite right when i was watching his race- i met him at the finish line and he basically collapsed in my arms in tears- he was limping and said his knee hurt- it is better today just a bruise

lately my heart just melts and my eyes fill with tears during children's church- we have some amazing kids and it touches me so when they open their heart to God and sing to Him. thank you Lord for speaking to me -and sending the kids you are sending- they are amazing

the end of the year is approaching for school

wow where did this year go as far as school - it seemed like yesterday we were wondering how marcus would do in middle school. well he has done awesome- honor roll all year- so much has changed since last year.
no more child care- no more riding the 'special' bus- no more therapy- wow- God is so good- He sees us through everything.
as I type I smile. not saying we have not had some days but now we deal with adolescence stuff- its ok though- I think-

he is funny so very funny- makes me laugh- he is honest and so tender hearted- heart of compassion. we have an open relationship where he can ask me anything and if I dont know i get someone who does know.

we have had some really deep conversations- from growing up and things boys go through (in which I do enlist additional help when needed :) )- to questions about his birth mom and birth family- honest answers is key

Mother's Day weekend

we had prayer and pancakes last night and this word is ringing in my heart NOW- what is God going to do NOW- i love that- as i prayed last night for God to speak to my heart about how he wants to use me- he simple said i am- you are being obedient and the support group you are starting is all about bringing people Hope - this will bring hope to the hopeless-this is not my support group but God's to ues me to reach others for Him and to show them there is hope for their children and their family - a rebuilding as Pastor Larry spoke of - I want God to use me to help rebuild families where there is challenges with behaviors- God has surely restored our family in a huge way and so want others to see that.

today was so awesome with Marcus running in his meet dropping over a minute off his time for the 3000 and over 40 sec off his time in the 1500 and 7 sec off in his 800- placing with 2 golds and 1 silver- his 800 brought tears to my eyes as he came from behind to win the race- my mom ( his grannie ) would be so proud- thinking of you this weekend mom- marcus said he ran the races for you- Happy Bday and Mother's Day- you are loved and missed so much!

Dear mom-

i can not see you but in pictures and in memories that are in my mind and on my heart- can not feel you or hear your words unless i close my eyes. i often look at your picture and say i wish you were here to see all the good that has happened to all of us. you would be so proud of all the accomplishments - i can see you smiling. i can sense the conversations we would be having.
thank you mom for believing in us- for supporting us in all we did- for cheering us on- for writing letters on behalf of your crazy single daughter who wants to change the life of a child- well in fact you writing that letter forever changed 2 lives that will never be the same- ever. it has not been quite 2 years since you have been gone- sometimes it seems like forever ago sometimes like yesterday we were sitting and talking on the back porch in Venice.u would be so proud at how your grandkids are doing- and oh my word the things i say to marcus sound just like you (lori does the same thing with ainsley and dakota) so you live on in our actions - and sometime attitudes - you live on in the compassion in our hearts - you live on in the traditions we still carry on- thank u for loving us thank you for who you are- Happy Bday mom and Happy mother's day- you are loved and so very much missed
love michele

Happy Mother's Day- everyone enjoy your day and hold close to your mom's and tell her and your children you love them everyday

I can not believe

i have not written in several days-

ok so preparing for track meets the next 3 weekends- plus preparing for vacation- wahoo Wyoming here we come-

busy busy- workng on LIFEgroups for church - working on mom's day stuff for church

so let me just take a moment

been  a little of a roller coaster the last few days- moms bday is approaching and mothers day- all on the same day- miss her a lot -

marcus is doing well - honor roll still- next week we have the last chorus concert- he has a track meet and the same night willbe honored at an honor roll reception
busy busy