back on line again

well i thought i would catch you up what has transpired over the last several months - and will keep you up to speed as time progresses- i do this to get things out plus remind people they are not alone when it comes to dealing with behaviorally challenged children- mental health issues

this is not for the faint at heart but honestly not sure how much my heart can take or how much more it can take emotionally and mentally

so let me catch you up from march- i think i shared marcus was baker acted- then in may the bottom dropped out of my world - i am still sorting it all out but lets just say marcus lost control and has affected us both- not sure where he is at mentally but for me- its messed me up - if i am being honest

how could someone you love and put all the time and energy into over the years hurt you as he did.

our lives have not been the same since May 19th.

4 years ago marcus was in residential to get some additional help and on august 10th he reentered residential. he needs some help in which i can no longer give. hopefully we get the same or better outcome as we did four years ago.

the pain in my heart emotionally can be overwhelming at times but there are some amazing people in my life that are loving me through- praying me through

at times i wonder what in the world and why do we have to go through this again- i don't have an answer and may never get one- i just know we still have a long 6 months ahead of us- pray for us fro strongholds to be broken off m and to mend our broken family.

i know i just opened up a can of worms- for lots of questions - but i have lots of questions myself- so...