1st day of school

well I took the first day of school off- yes I did- not that I am resting or anything- I have other stuff I am trying to catch up on- and focus on- trying to activate a phone for Marcus since his got cracked- we wont go there. working on emails and such and projects for church. paying bills - so no rest for me - just hoping it wont take all day- but I kind of like this off during the day and working at Panera- all the hazelnut coffee I want.
we did an outreach for church for kids at an elementary school and I can't wait for another one- this is what its all about helping the community reaching into their lives and giving them hope.
I am also working on my first meeting - I already hear that there are parents who want to come so time to print up the flyers and encourage others that it will be ok

I often regress in remembering the first days of school with Marcus- all the days were good then the years progressed and wooo- its all good now- I cant not say many things are wrong ( just when he gets tired or anxious- yes this morning we were a little anxious). he worked with us last night in preparing the backpacks and said mom when can we do this again- I want to help other kids. I love his heart. he makes me proud- he loves to serve.

he is excited to share God with others this year at school- I told him do it in your way- shine for Jesus like no other. use actions and only words if you need too. We prayed last night at bed time as I always have and will always will. praying that God will use him as He knows the plan and purpose for Marcus. Marcus is truly is amazing young man, oh it gets tiring at times being mom and dad but so worth it. So glad I pressed through all the garbage we went through. I am blessed to be his mom.

He has a great schedule this year and I know he will do well if he sets his mind to it and focuses.

 7th grade- where has the time gone?

The day that changed my (our) life (lives)

i remember it like it was yesterday but in fact in was 2 years ago today that my mom left this earth as we know it.
she had been in the hospital since the 5th of August with mulitiple issues going on. we had been praying for a miracle - the medical side of me knew it was not good- i was still trusting God- we may not have gotten the miracle we wanted- but a miracle did happen - you see we did not know how long mom was sick - she would never tell us. let me back up
so marcus and i went to the hospital that sunday morning around 9 am (yes I told you I remember the details of that day vividly)- we wanted to visit before church- marcus wanted to sing to grannie - so he did then we met up with one of the doctors and he said he needed to talk with dad so we called and he was on his way. the news was not good and a decision of what needed to be done needed to be made in the next 24 hours the doctor said- marcus finished singing and with a heavy heart him and i went to church. as serivce was ending dad called and said it was not looking good and we needed to get to the hospital- mom had already coded once. we arrived right at 1 pm- we actually all arrived about the same time- lori and dad and the rest of the crew from home - marcus and i from church. nurse said she did not look good-the nurse asked if she coded again if they should resuscitate and i know i said no- i could not see putting her through it again. i went in to see her and so did lori- then dad said he needed a moment to talk with mom. lori and i stepped out and we both said you know what he is telling her right? yep go be with Doreen ( my older sister who died at 2 months of age). dad left the room, i stayed , held moms hand and told her i loved her and it was ok. i know lori was outside the room at that point. I stayed and held her hand until all the alarms went off and her ekg went flat at 1:26 pm- the nurses were awesome they took all the hoses and tubes off- we asked the kids if they wanted to see her and of course they said yes. with heavy hearts we said goodbye and left the hospital. however the miracle did happen she was not suffering in pain any longer- not how i would have done but I am not God
dont take family and friends for granted tell one another you love them and care about them

i love and miss you mom more then words can say

The review of summer

well this summer was jam packed with a ton of things going on- we had the last of the track meets as we ended school and then the following wee we were camping in the Mtns of Wyoming with my Uncle Dave, Aunt Cheryl and cousin Lucas and Ali. what an amazing time we had- we did not want to leave- loved it out there it was beautiful.
we came home and marcus went to soccer camp for a week- then hung out with sarah at their house off an on- he then went to youth camp- I painted his room while he was gone in USF colors - he came home -I did laundry dealed with a flooded house (while friends looked after it while I was gone) and then I left for kids camp- changed my look on dealing with things in a big way- came home and marcus had football camp and then off to papaws for a few days . marcus had some drs appts and then this week is quiet as we prep for school to start on the 19th.
I cant believe he starts 7th grade - whew where has the time gone- it just seemed like yesterday I was at his foster home meeting him for the first time- running out of the bedroom hollering mommy- now its mommmmmmmmy. he is such an amazing young man and I have learned so much from him. how we have grown together and will continue to grow- looking forward to it.
people often say wow you are entering middle school age- tough years- yes however I say this is nothing to handle compare to the first 6 years.
to another new year of school and growth!

the week of July 22nd- life changing

i went to kids camp last week- it was amazing- almost did not make it do to a flood in the house yet i have amazing friends who took care of the house so i could and let me say it was life changing
we need to be praying for our kids of this generation they have so much junk they deal with- from dads being in jail to moms being in rehab and dying of cancer to being abused- from dealing with being angry at life. what have we done to this generation of kids. my flood is minor in comparison to what these kids go through- the ages of these kids 3-6 grade.
i encourage you to pray for this generation for them to be life changers- God's got something big for the group of kids i got to be with this past week - i know it- the girls i was with were amazing but deal with so much- He has a plan for them and they will be used by Him.

wowzers its been a while

well lets see what has been going on - not much- hmm

marcus has been to multiple camps - i painted his room while he was at youth camp- did i say that oh my where has the time gone- it sure does fly-
then next week i am going to kids camp and the following week he goes to football camp- oye- tired just reading that

thins are going well over the summer- he is such a good kid and we have a lot of fun- i have missed him a lot since he has been gone the whole week- can not wait to hug his neck and see how his first year of youth camp was.

and then to show him his room he is gonna flip - i hope-

i will begin a series here soon my blog on overcoming and working through -and it will be through Ms perspective-

tomorrow i may write about a kid that he could have been-
i smile on the inside - why stay tune i will tell you why

my life our story

sometimes i wonder why i put myself through something- trying to educate myself for my family and ended up getting ridiculed and hurt- so i have learned i will not do that again (this is the second time- i will not do it a third time)

i need to live my life for us - sorry it does not work out that way for all- but it works for m and i and we have a very open relationship about his past and how he is doing and when ever he wants to discuss it - i am there for him-

there for him regardless-

anyway off that soap box-

here are some pictures of our trip

now you see why i wanted to stay -

I am back

ok so i know its been a while but things were happening in my neck of the woods- started my support group for behaviorally challenged children - well actually there parents - next meeting July 8th

but the main thing going on was vacation and taking Marcus out west to see my Uncle Dave and Aunt Cheryl- in Wyoming and having some difficulty getting back to the normal life of Wesley Chapel. miss the view and my uncle ( we have a great relationship- always have even though he is 2000 miles away).
call me crazy but as i was going through the trails out there i guess the overwhelming beauty caught up with me- i teared up and was like thank you God for this amazing beauty- words can not express the beauty that was out there- and they see it everyday. can not wait to go back again sooner rather then later and learned a bit while i was out there about how to enjoy each day and to live life to the fullest each of your days. miss my family out there like crazy and looking forward to starting to do things around here and live each day to the fullest-

my plans- seeing dad more , biking trails in Florida- enjoying our surroundings, exercising with M more and maybe just maybe do a 5k or a triathlon with him- eating better- one day at a time and it begins today. making time for extended family and for marcus and I.

tomorrow i will post wyoming pictures