Home Alone

well Marcus spent last night and tonight with the Cole Family- not too bad with behavior - nothing but kid behavior -which is good-
today was a quick day at work- in fact all week is- since the university is shut down-
just working half days this week and then off the following week-

Today after work went for my first tea with amazing friends- I love these ladies so much- they have been my source of strength and comfort- I do not think they know how much they mean to me- words can never say-

Now home to a quiet home- snuggled in my blanket watching tv- aww ( of course it would be better if my headache would go away)

Merry Christmas!

As I sit listening to the Gaither's Christmas on TV- I am reflecting on the day and the last few days- and how thankful I am for good days-I hold them close- just because you never know when the tide will turn- I take each day as a gift now more then ever- and so blessed and thankful when they are as good as they have been over the last few days
So highlights- well Marcus asked Santa for a bell from Rudolph's neck- because he wanted to believe he was real- he wanted proof- well if you could have seen the look on his face ( I think Lori got a picture) it was truly priceless when he found the bell at the bottom of his stocking- who would have thought a small bell would bring a child that much delight.
Marcus got a football from grannie and papaw and played with that most of the afternoon with papaw and Dakota.
My son only asked for a few things and one was a bible word search- in which Santa had found and he was thrilled with that as well- it is apretty good one- I like it - not just words but the meaning of them- bible verses etc- Santa did good :)

Honestly - I was not looking forward to celebrating this year cause I truly did not know what the day would bring- but I had to trust in God today more then ever - for wisdom and guidance. More then ever I have had to rely on Him - because of not knowing which way to turn- God has His hand on Marcus- I dedicated him 5 years ago when I adopted him and need to trust God with him- He has amazing plans for him- the times we are going through now just means God has an amazing testimony for him on the other side-
So today was amazing- truly blessed by the day- I was smiling as I was driving home with tears in my eyes as I listened to Marcus play Bop it for an hour and half- it was truly a delight

TODAY

today was a great day- some issues first thing this morning but afterwards we were good to go- Marcus went with Uncle Adam this morning while I went to work and then I got him and we ran around for last minute things and he was a joy to be around we laughed and laughed- skipped across the parking lot at the stores ate- he took a nap- he did his chores with out issue we went for a walk - I cooked dinner and then we ended the night with special friends watching the Steelers. He crashed before we got to the main road from their house.
Today is a victory and I will take it -

It Christmastime

Yes it is Christmastime but why am I not rejoicing - just have not felt like it- Oh I know the reason for the season is Jesus and so thankful for Him- I would be nothing with out him.
I am trying to be positive and all and that at times I am just so tired of the dealings of a very defiant aggressive child-very demanding child- it wears you down. ok enough of not so happy discussion cause my son seems to be the topic of most of my blogs lately and how rough it has been- which it is all true- but on ward to Christmastime (okay after the last few minutes there is a twist )

Christmastime is a time for family and friends to celebrate the birth of Christ- and yet at the same time you can not trust when your son will flip the switch- and turns the day into a nightmare for all involved even though they may not say it.

Christmastime is a time for laughter and having a good time- until your son takes it to the extreme and goes wackadoodle

Christmastime is a time to travel and look at the lights around town - until your son gets upset and angry about something said in the car and begins screaming and punching the doors-

Christmastime is a time to relax and chill out and get rest- however you think about what may happen- and the relaxation goes out the window-

Christmastime I love it when it works out the way we think it should but in reality I never know what the next day will bring- what will cause a set off or what will make him calm-

My gift this year for Christmas will be the help my son needs- I hope it comes soon

What a great day yesterday

It was a great day at church yesterday- From the start to the finish was great- My favorite part was when the teens came up to hear the story - that was my part to read and talk to Marty the puppet- we have a good time :) ( talking to the puppet helps keep my sanity- i enjoy it so much)

Marcus is in the pictures too- singing (marcus is all the way to the right)

We have such a good group of kids- we that work with them love what we do

My days consist of listening

My days tend to be days that I listen to a lot of praise and worship- why cause it gets me through the days- reminding me I am not alone and God is always with me in the good time and bad- He is on His throne and is there helping me through

You are God Alone- Phillips Craig and Dean

You are not a God
Created by human hands
You are not a God
Dependant on any mortal man
You are not a God
In need of anything we can give
By Your plan, that's just the way it is

[chorus]
You are God alone
From before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

You're the only God
Whose power none can contend
You're the only God
Whose name and praise will never end
You're the only God
Who's worthy of everything we can give
You are God
And that's just the way it is

How the last week panned out

Monday- released and home-
Tuesday returned to school - however the morning was extremely rough
Wednesday - rough morning - had to be picked up at school do to wrong behaviors on the bus
Thursday- better morning- odd behavior- had to pick up because of being suspended from bus- the evening was ok- went over to dinner at Gig and Mo's (love these people- they are awesome)
Friday- odd behaviors in the am- evening was ok and then the bottom fell out and he lost control- fortunately I was not alone-
Saturday - good day- helped feed the homeless at church this morning- I do have to say Marcus loves to help.

Why am I sharing this brief synopsis- well you see the days are often not known of what could happen-the slightest of comments could alter the day to catastrophic proportions (i know that is to the extreme) but it feels that way at times- its a roller coaster ride- of good days and not so good days- it is like you never know what switch will be turned on as you wake him up- we are walking on eggshells

Praying for openings sooner rather then later- I know there is protocol but I serve a God who can open doors like no other