These are the words that sum up the last month

stressed
lonely
uplifted
thankful
thankful
thankful
loved
tired
worn out
what more
crazy
thoughts running
3 trips
communication
texting and more texting
caring
thoughtful
reality
decisions
quiet time
such love such support such concern
the next step
one day at a time
faith
strength
the right decision
peace
friends
family
health care providers (awesome)
rescue
small light at the end of the tunnel
this is not the way it was suppose to be
this is how it has to be
listening to the ramblings of a mom
thankful ( in know I said that) for those who have been there the last month
shoulders to cry on
friends to laugh with
hugs
Awesome school personnel
encouragement
waiting
roller coaster
standing on the word for the miracle that waits
love
caring

I really need to read my own blogs-

I actually wrote take one day at a time- what was I thinking- yep a little stressed out today- I need to get some paperwork done and praying it all comes together by Friday- I am sure it will I have amazing people helping me-just need to chill out about it- ok Michele (telling myself) one day at a time and breathe

I need to keep reminding myself

I need to remind myself one day at a time-I like to get it all done -now-but that is not how things work- so backing up a little and then regrouping- I just have a myriad of thoughts I need to get done-(not really) just feeling a little overwhelmed and need to ask questions- as they come and figure out each step- which is part of the problem- I am not sure what the next step is- so it is time to go and ask questions today in which I plan on doing-and will continue to do- never done this before - so many questions
ok breathe and take each day - one at a time

Followed the advice of friends

Ok with a couple of my friends highly suggesting to go to B and N and read a book and just relax- I did that last night - of course finding a seat was next to impossible but one opened up a few minutes into me being there-

Got out one of my books I have been needing to get through - which I did- people watched- got on the computer- looked at some music- it was actually nice- yes I was by myself- stayed there for a couple hours (my battery died on the computer)

honestly not worrying if there was going to be an outburst or such was nice- quiet time for me-

and I took a nap as well in the afternoon- which I do not normally do but it was nice just to chill out and get the rest I need-

Thanks friends!

Journey Ahead

Marcus and I have a journey ahead and for me it is uncharted waters- well this whole single parent adoptive family has been uncharted waters- I learn and grow as we go

Not going into detail what the journey ahead is for us but just know it is something that needs to be done- well that is what I keep telling myself- and many others tell me too- in reality it is true it needs to be done- I know I am not making sense.

Knowing what needs to be done does not make it any easier - honestly a piece of my heart is being ripped a part- for those of you who know me understand what I am saying and why.

So the journey is just barely beginning and it may be a long one- and a tough one for both of us. so many thoughts go through my mind-
and I know when I have questions about the journey I have those around me who can help with the answers

Photos for our 5 year Familiversary-

We had some photos taken for our 5 year Familiversary
Photos taken by Lourdes Manners

Our God Is In Control

the first few words to this song is so true right now- this is not how it was plan to be-
I know I know God is in control- so thankful right now for those who know all that is going on- what would we do with out you all