BELIEVE HE SAID NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

Christmas in July- what a wonderful night and I know I know it is August what is she talking about Listening more to Him- Trusting Him- Relying on Him- Giving it all to Him- All of which I have done but really needed and still need to do it more. Constantly growing in Him.

Ok what exactly am I talking about.

Well the message on that Friday night forever changed me along with another message that will be talked about below- - well my life was changed so much and even since then I have been changing drawing closer to Him and him-

Believe- I have to believe -that if He can move mountains He can move my mountain- I must believe- I must believe- oh I had said I believed but in all reality I did not think or believe- I believed He could move every ones mountain but mine- well not any longer I believe.

He said- God said He said he can take care of all our needs- finances- emotional- physical- children- work- all of our needs He said HE SAID- why am I not believing He said well I do believe HE Said he Can and we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us HE said

Nothing is Impossible for God- lame men walk he touched those with leprosy healed the blind- touched an ear that Peter cut off- walked on water- ROSE from the dead. so Nothing is Impossible for God- and my need my son is so important to him but I must believe I must -

so BELIEVE HE SAID NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

Then on Sunday PDs part of the message just gripped me and I have not let go of the words she said- Stop Complaining stop complaining about your children you did not need to have them (paraphrasing) you are so right ok God what are you really telling me-So He spoke to me big time- God said you keep complaining about Marcus and all the junk you are going through- however I chose him for you and you for him not to be complained about but to be poured into positively -you are his biggest advocate yet you complain too-you need to pour into him - just you and him- trust me BELIEVE I SAID Nothing is Impossible- ok I am listening to you God and Believing~really Believing

So that week I was on vacation- poured into my son and not complained- we found a child care with Marcus help and prayerful consideration- a teacher who is male and "brown" like Marcus ( as he would say) and the teacher and his siblings are adopted- Believing- smaller environment - everything I have been looking for yet had never thought to look there- Believe Nothing is Impossible for God ( this past week was his first week and it was a little bumpy-but successful)

it was just him and I full of little surprises daily nothing extravagant but poured ito and we talked and laughed and it was the best week I have had with him- we went Tuesday we had Drs appts all day so I thought well we have to eat so we went to CHanelside and ate at Bennigans by the window and he had a big ole smile on his face the whole time- special- Thursday we went to Homassaa Springs( Embracing) and had a wonderful time we took a boat and it was priceless simply priceless times- Friday we were tired ok he was so we layed around the house watching movies all day and then Saturday we went to the Bucs practice ( bucs) he was all big eyed- he was great fun

I have come a long way over the last couple of weeks really trusting God with Marcus and me pouring positive into is life - so if you start to pick on him - make fun of him- be negative about him just stop complaining about him and pour positive into him- it is changing him so traumatically - Believe He said Nothing is Impossible

Are you ready for some Football?

Well we went to the Bucs training camp last night- it was fun- I enjoyed it because of watching Marcus- he was so excited he talked 50 miles an hour the whole time- I am like woah -slow down - we can be happy and in control (those are the words I use now)

Here are some pictures of our time at Raymond James- Go BUCS

Bathroom make over

I have been wanting to make my bathroom over for a long time now (4 years) and finally did it today- needs painted but that can wait- I wanted to put my Africa stuff back up-
(the giraffes were made in Zimbabwe- where we bartered for them)
(the elephant was made in Botswana)

Embracing the Moment

This has really resonated in my heart since last Friday - so each day I am working on embracing the moments- here are some moments I embraced with Marcus today

Dealing with Abandonment...

Well we are on to new endeavors and working with Marcus-George thinks Marcus may be dealing with abandonment issues- hiding behind me (feels safe)- acting out at school or summer camp- feeling left like I am not coming back- so we will be working o this over the next few weeks- to see where we are at-

Children who have been abandoned often develop a fear of abandonement. They fear that their new parents will abandon them, leaving them cold and hungry. They fear that a teacher who is out sick for the day has abandoned them. These children assume that anytime someone leaves them that they have once again been abandoned.
Many children who are adopted have a hard time with object permanence- the ability to understand that an object is still there although it can no longer be seen. This stage of development usually happens at around 7 to 9 months of age. Adopted children struggle with this concept. Often, children will go through an abandonment process every time they leave their parents for school.

Did you know.....

National data on child abuse fatalities show that a child is nearly twice as likely to die of abuse in foster care as in the general population. Children in foster care are three to six times more likely than children not in care to have emotional, behavioral and developmental problems, including conduct disorders, depression, difficulties in school and impaired social relationships. Some experts estimate that about 30% of the children in care have marked or severe emotional problems. Various studies have indicated that children and young people in foster care tend to have limited education and job skills, perform poorly in school compared to children who are not in foster care, lag behind in their education by at least one year, and have lower educational attainment than the general population.


*Casey Family Programs National Center for Resource Family Support

80 percent of prison inmates have been through the foster care system.
*National Association of Social Workers

Children are 11 times more likely to be abused in State care than they are in their own homes.
*National Center on Child Abuse and Neglect (NCCAN)

Children died as a result of abuse in foster care 5.25 times more often than children in the general population. 2.1 percent of all child fatalities took place in foster care. While this may seem like a relatively low number, we must consider the contrast in population between children in the general population versus children in foster care. In 1997, there were nearly 71 million children in the general population (99.6%), but only 302 thousand in state care (.4%) in state care. As state care is supposed to be a 'safe haven', the number of fatalities should be less or at least equal to what it is in the general population of children. By this standard, there should have been less than .4% of child fatalities occurring in foster care, however, there was 5.25 times that amount. (31 states reporting)
*CPS Watch Inc.

I have a child that is a statistic but for him God was able to snap him out of continuing to be a statistic- I am appalled by the fact that people are granted foster care license when this is going on- unfortunately all is nicety nice when case workers show up to see what is going on- I am dismayed by adults treating children in this way and causing detrimental outcomes for the future of the child- but I know one thing my son was snatched from the grips of one of these homes just by what we see going on- do I have proof - read the stats above and see if Marcus falls into that category-


I will not allow him to become another statistic from the system- God will be glorified in all of this- God is our provider- God is our healer- We will Overcome by the blood of the lamb.

In all we have come through and will continue to work through - I am thankful to God for giving me the abilities He has to help me through- without Him I am nothing-I am thankful to God for this opportunity to rehabilitate one of God's precious children.


I am thankful for Marcus - he has come so far- the journey is not over and as his Drs and therapist have both said today we have a long road ahead but we are doing so well-and that we will take 3 steps forward and 1 or 2 back and 3 steps forward and 1-2 back. Just hold steady and keep pressing on.

I am truly in aww at what his therapist and caseworker told me today- They both said you are doing so well- you are doing so much for him and you take what we say and utilize the tools we have given you- you are one of the few that go to the extent you do to provide exactly what Marcus needs- keep doing what you are doing. Of course I was like other parents do not do this for the kids and they said you would be surprised.

Marcus is home again

a week without Marcus I will not lie was very nice- it was nice to not to have to continue to talk to him-about his choices and goals and anger control and goals- etc etc
So I picked him up and not even 20 minutes in the car he started with a tude and all the other junk he does-
silence edued over the car cause I was not going to do this.

I keep me reminding me of the word- the message from our women's meeting on Friday Night- to Embrace the Moment- although some moments I really do not want to do.

What others words were spoken- I have to believe- I have to believe- - He said it it will be done- Nothing is impossible He said- the song talks about moving mountains - well I really wish this mountains would finally move aside- I am still standing cause at times I have no idea what else to do but to stand-

God spoke to me Saturday night - you say you believe I will do something - you say it but do you really believe it-well I think there is was doubt that things would change- I know things have changed however more needs to change- more needs to change- I have to believe really believe that God will do a miracle- He said he would take care of my needs- well God my need - needs for you to take care of- My mountain needs to move aside- move aside mountain move aside