Today...

was a great day for Marcus- work for me was good- busy surgery day
then I get back to my office at 2:45 ( I leave at 3) and there are 2 messages from Adam on my work phone - a text message on my cell phone and a voice message with his cell number as the return number- of course this sent me into oh no what has happened - I was calm
Called him- whatever you need me to do. Sarah was at the emergency room since this morning- can you help and go get Brenda- whatever you need I said.
So I ran and got Brenda ran and got Marcus went and let my dog out and started for St Joesphs Hospital- it sounded like appendicitis- You see Adam was there since early this morning-
but everything came back normal - we were half way there and he said go to the house they are discharging her- okay-
then we were almost at the house and he called- he said hang there for a little while she just vomited again-
okay so all is well for now- she was discharged with some nausea meds and needs to follow up with her Dr tomorrow- maybe viral-
So we were a little out of schedule but Marcus did so well- I told him what was going on and he said can I pray for Sarah- absoultely - He loves Sarah. Shoot he loves the whole Tobias Family- He asked about Chris tonight.
So the Tobias's are all home- we are home- Marcus is out very quickly--
I am getting ready to go read- I am not much of a reader but I am hooked on this book that Bernie and Lisa gave at the CE dinner and I am hooked on the 5 laguages of love for children- very good very insightful-I started it last night and I see Marcus in a few of the scenarios the book talks about-
So have a good evening keep Sarah in your prayers-

Peace Peace Wonderful Peace Coming Down from the Father Above

Oh what a wonderful time I had at our CE dinner- so peaceful - so rejuvenating- so thought provoking-so peaceful- did I say that-
I stayed fairly late-and just sat on the porch talking with a few others that stayed- it is so quiet on Bernie and Lisa's porch-
As I was driving home I had a smile on my face and felt so peaceful inside- that has been missing for a while.
I got home and was reading my lesson for Sunday School and then pulled out my new lessons- well I did the new lesson today- On leadership- oh my I have work to do- Oh I know I have been in leadership but wow - I need to increase it- I apologized to the youth in Sunday School for not being a better leader and I was going to work on it.
I was up til 2 this am just conversing with God- It was truly amazing- I woke up at 5 and continued the conversation - went back to sleep and up at 7. I went into Sunday School about 8:30 to review the new lesson I was doing- I was driving in and was very peaceful having a conversation with God - started to cry-not really sure why but did.
Spoke with Bernie and told what an impact last night was on my life-right now and started to cry-
Sunday School was pretty good- I got asked with some challenging questions which I posed to the wiser ones-
Went and picked Marcus up -had a good day up until it was time to go get a shower- I do not want one he said- well 20 minutes later we were having a discussion and he went up and got a shower-
Afterwards we did a devotion and then prayed together for about 15-20 minutes - it was only going to be a few minutes but it was longer then I anticipated- it was very calming and very peaceful- I sensed God working on Marcus and I as I prayed for him- I always pray with my hands on him and it was just very peaceful -
Now I am going to do my study- will talk about that in a couple a weeks- pray about it though-

Do you hear it? no

It is called silence- it has been about 6 hours since we met up with my sister- I was able to do shopping - Santa shopping- and clean the car out and take a nap- ahhh a nap it was lovely- sat and watched a movie about a dog- and now getting ready for our CE dinner- with only adults - I am not sure I will know how to behave although the adults can get more rambunctious then the kids at times. It is a fun time

The best news of the day is Marcus has not been in trouble- yeah!!!!!! We had a wonderful morning of chores -it is our Saturday thing to do- he did what he was asked to do with out talking back- I got my haircut while he read his clubhouse Jr magazine ( good magazine for kids his age) it is from Focus on the Family. We were in and out-

You know with the week we had - I just want to say- he is an amazing child- really and truly- we were at Target and he was reading all the signs he could possibly read- he loves to read- I love that-

Ainsley got her hair cut today for locks of love- here is her before and after pictures- she is so cute with the new cute

I was brought to tears twice today

- I wish I was there for him at this age-


My son- this morning thought he would be funny and not listen- many of you have not seen this side of him- he thinks he is all cute and funny and speaking like a baby- I was trying to talk with him about having a good day and such and he would not have any part of it-so I called on Aunt Lori and Uncle Stacy - let us review this is at 5:55 in the morning-there was no way I was taking him into the center like this- Stacy talked and then Lori called back- he talked with her and seemed to settle down- then he talked with me said he was going to have a good day.


Great - Love you smooch - have a great day.


Cried on my way to work- oh and before I left at 6:11 I had him call my boss to inform her I was running late because of his choices- you see it is 20 minutes to work from where I was and I needed to be at work at 6:30.


So I pick him up in the afternoon- and what does the after school teacher tell me- he just bit someone why cause the other person would not get off of him- oh I am not happy because I had already read is behavior chart from school- he again tripped a child today.


Then I brought him inside from the playgorund after practicallu dragging him in to speak with him and he went off on a tantrum - leave me alone -I just wanted to talk- so I ended up having to carry him out all the while him yelling let me go and me saying when you can make a good choice I will. Lori wanted me to call so I did when we got in the car. Marcus was screaming like a baby and sucking his fingers when I meaning screaming I mean screaming-


Thank goodness my sister was able to talk him out because at this point I was furious- she was talking I was calming-


He quieted down- I drove home silently he wanted to talk I said when I am calm I will talk but right now I am very angry- silence on the way home- 2nd time I began to cry.we talked it out when we got home- I was blantly honest with him about how he made the choices and how sad and tired I am from this week- how I have had a headache pretty much all week- no exaggeration this is true. I did a little demo which I think woke him up- I kicked his back pack- and said Marcus this is what I am feeling like you are kicking me around like I am kicking your back pack- not taking care of it. We talked and then the consequences took place


Sentence writing and scripture writing about how to deal with anger, lying (he did that too), body parts to ourselves, and the las one was MArcus is gracious and compassionate slow to anger and rich in love- I reiterated that I love him but not his choices and that God created you to be kind, caring and compassionate and not hurtful.


Okay God what am I learning this time?


I know this is a time of regression for him but it is taking its toll on me- I can feel it emotional, physically and spiritually (thank goodness my work computer gets a praise and worship station-that helped so much today). His psychologist said he would go through it and since the holidays are upon us and things for him are so overstimulating - I just need to realize it- but sometimes I forget so for those of you reading this please feel free to remind me. This too shall pass right PD- this too shall pass.


Breathe in Breathe out


one more thing that is getting my goat and I think this may be a source of the problem- he is not getting his meds at the right time - hello for those of you who have seen him with out meds either in the morning or later then he is suppose to have them- we have a wild man on our hands. so an email went out promptly today to address that.


okay to bed I go - I get to sleep in yeah-!!!

Time for adults

Okay - I need time with adults so I am so looking forward to our CE dinner on Saturday - can we have it tomorrow night instead- I doubt it I know- it is okay all the more to enjoy the time without a child- I love him but I need sometime with adults-

In fact I will have about 24 hours with out him yes my wonderful sister and brother in law are watching him ahhhhhh.

Marcus had another rough day today so he is in his room writing on how he should have behaved- and scripture verses too.

James 1:20
A man's anger doesn't produce the kind of life God wants

ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay we were having a good run and today I pick Marcus up and ask him how his day went- great 11 stickers/stars earned- went to the gorcery store had a good time there and then the phone rang which changed the entire rest of the evening-

I am sooo angry right now hence I am writing- he got mad with his teacher because she was correcting him abut putting is hiney in another child's face - so he scratched the teacher bit the teacher - it took 2 of them to restrain him. and this happened 3 minutes before the bell.

ARGGGH- so the principal said because of the rules he needed to be suspended ugh- tomorrow ugh ugh- we talked and she allowed ISS half a day and then OSS the other half- thanks Margi- my wonderful boss- she understands completely .

Marcus and I talked - I had him write an apology to the teacher- I just want to take everything away from him- the computer- drums- baseball(we have not started it yet- I do not want to give it to him now)

I feel what have I done wrong - We have done so well since September and now this-I know it is not true but sitting at the table with him I went I failed somewhere- just how I am feeling right now so hold on- it will pass- I did not make the choice for him to bite his teacher and scratch her so that was all him- just aggravated with him cause I KNOW HE KNOWS BETTER.

breathe in breathe out- "SIGH"

Thanksgiving Pictures and family photos

This is my sister and my parents this Thanksgiving- the building in the back is where our horses are.

The dogs playing while Marcus and Ainsley were playing a game- the madness of it all

One moment the kids were all quiet and watching TV in grannie and papaws room- ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Marcus reading to Papaw- how precious- I love it

The Danielsons- Papaw, Grannie, Marcus, and me- my sister I took her and therest of the Cole Family - I only have one of those and may post at a later date but for now- All of us in this photo have the same last name.