Saturday, September 21, 2013

time to share - going to be blatantly honest

at times in our life we get discouraged, disappointed and struggle  with things- well I  am no different - just like all the rest of you- I go through those times and sometimes it just the overwhelming of life - being a mom- being in ministry - being the head of the household, working full time.
you get disappointed when people don't get you or don't understand where you are coming from- you get disappointed in people when they do things you don't expect- you get discouraged by things not working out the way you want- you struggle with things that you thought were not a problem-


so honestly-
have you ever been disappointed with people and did not know how to handle it- yep that is me- I thought or expected a difference but I guess I was wrong- no need to go into detail of what or who here- that is not important and I am sure I have disappointed people in my life as well-

 I have been discouraged by a support group I am trying to get off the ground and have gotten no responses until recently- it is my hearts passion to help those parents who have children with behavioral challenges- letting them know they are not alone- I want to be there for them, and show them there is an up side. I know the parents are out there- I know they think they are alone- I went through the same thing- how do I get help? where is help? how can I change to help my child?
Speaking to friends they are like it will come keep going after your dream your passion, some don't want to admit they need help or have issues.
struggles- I have a struggle that I have been working through- thought I was over it thought it was not a big deal-its not a horrible big deal just a struggle right now in which I know I will overcome- just at this moment its a little difficult and I am working through-  I often get teased or picked on about it- and I know people don't mean to hurt with there words but they have no idea at this moment in time its a struggle- I will overcome- its not as bad the struggle is getting better- so no worries
why in the world an I sharing well- you see all 3 of these things I have been dealing with for about a month or so and it was just piling up on me- you keep going you keep functioning but then it begins to take its toll on you - you begin to become undernourished, feeble, weak or as it was said this weekend dehydrated. Facing dehydration is not fun- been there physically and do not like it- pretty close emotionally and spiritually recently pretty close- wanted to walk away from it all- being honest here. nothing crazy. just stop the support group - stop being involved in ministry -oh I would pray and read the word but there was something missing- and I found it this weekend His presence. His presence is so powerful, so nourishing, so rejuvenating, so refreshing.
To be in His presence was the message last night and so thankful for it- to be in it to be refreshed by it.
Today's message was about the favor of God and the blessing of God- I so want His favor - not giving up on the dreams planted in my heart - no way-
So excited for what God has for me as an individual - my life- my family- my ministry - my heart
So excited for what God has for our church- God is going to do amazing things in the lives in which we come in contact with- I can not wait to see it all unfold in His timing.

I want to be overcome by his presence

Sunday, September 15, 2013

soccer game fan fest and thoughts

so we had soccer on Saturday and it was hot at 945 am with no air moving - the kids were very hot and appeared a little dehydrated thank goodness I had training in track for being prepared- :)
Marcus scored 1 goal and the teams tied 3-3 . it was a good game-
then we went to the Lightning fan fest - it was a nice time but I think Marcus was embarrassed - you tell me by his face in the picture below






 
well my thoughts- just a few things I have become discouraged about and not sure how to address a couple of them- it maybe more frustrations - no maybe discouraged is a better word- yes I will be vague but it is ok cause this is my blog :) just need to work it all out in my heart and mind-
one is something I know God laid on my heart to do and have not gotten any responses from- a few others just some disappointments - I know if I don't expect something I will not be disappointed- working on that as well.- I know its vague but like I said working it out - and just want to say if you are discouraged about something keep pressing on and going - at time you may feel you are not making a difference in anything you work with but keep pressing on- I am telling myself this too

Monday, September 9, 2013

well soccer and then some

Soccer has officially begun for us- we had our first game on Saturday and Marcus played well. Dad was able to come up and see him play-which was an added bonus. He had teammates from last year and they clicked like they played all year together. I think he is a pretty awesome play but I am just mom
So tonight- begins hopefully- the beginning of something new and exciting for parents with behaviorally challenged children- a support group- letting parents know they are not alone and that there are other parents who have been through things and know where to turn- lets see what God has in store

Monday, September 2, 2013

Lock Down - and down and out

well Marcus is still asleep from his lock in experience- he brought 2 friends with him-nice kids-
Marcus did not sleep at all and was hyper on the way home- oye- he just does not get it under control at times

but the boys had fun- was able to talk with one of the boys on the way- lets call him Carl- Carl was at Manatee Palms for 8 months - he was there when Marcus was there and now they both are doing well and things look good. Him and his family live about 5 minutes from us- small world. Carl is adopted as well along with his 3 other sisters. His biological mom has a similar background to Marucs' biological mom. He is a nice kid- and his family seems very nice- had similar issues as Marcus did -so proud of the both of them.

they talked about the games and their favorite Heartbrave ( I know it is Braveheart- but Marcus was so delirious that is what he called it)