Tuesday, April 30, 2013

When God speaks

well this past month has been a great time- spending a lot of time in prayer and focusing on what God has for our family and our church- much has happened for us as a family -
in the beginning of the month I was offered an additional job- teaching vet tech students- ahh another passion of mine
with in the first couple of weeks - opened doors to have my support group that i have been dreaming of for over 2 years- and have so much support from those who have helped Marcus and I over the last many years with his behavior challenges. I am excited to see how God is going to use us in this roll- I know there are alot families out there that just need to know there is hope- I can definitely say our family is full of hope and determination- we don't give up

what else.. my heart is so tender right now for the kids that attend Celebration- My eyes fill with tears when new kids come and I am able to sit with them and help them learn the amazing songs we sing during praise and worship-so thankful for an opportunity to reach into kids lives and see how they change through Christ

I am blessed as I watch my son have a servant's heart- recently in school he was asked to be a leader in his math class to help a new student- he asks each day for the devotion and prays for each of the items that we are praying for as a church family. his heart wants others to know about Jesus and wants to reach the nations

God truly is a good God and I am truly overwhelmed by all He has blessed us with

Thursday, April 25, 2013

its the quiet of the morning

today I am off but I am taking a few minutes before the day to begin to sit and listen- its nice to be quiet - we get so caught up in our days and forget to listen- I do have to say I have been listening more over these last 25 days- God continues to speak to my heart in an overwhelming way- all good-
Bernie spoke of 1 making a difference last night at church- so this morning I keep thinking of what he spoke about-

why am I doing this- well because one person can make the difference in a life and can forever change it- starting a new adventure in June- hosting a support group for parents with behavioral challenged children. If only one shows up I will be overjoyed. Why because then they will know they are not alone in their journey.

I thought about myself and how as one I have made a difference- I think I have in one person in particular - Marcus- he has said many times to me - its because of you mommy not giving up on me that is why I am where I am at today- those words so penetrate my heart- now we are going to use what we went through to help another one.

you can make a difference in one person's life whether it be- a simple smile- paying for their lunch- a simple I am here for you- what ever God lays on your heart can make a difference to them and you.

You know people say you have changed his life forever - yes this may be true- however Marcus has changed my life forever- I sit and shake my head at times just thinking what an amazing young man he is and the impact he is going to have in this world- Truly one does make a difference

Will you be the one?

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

where is the time going

i often reflect as i drive home - often pray when i am in the car- today i did both as we left church-
why? we are doing a fast at church and devotionals we read from our pastor daily- marcus asks for them everyday- i am so proud of him-
we talked about burdens tonight and how we do not know what others carry- so true- i thought back a few years and thought i carried a lot with marcus' behaviors no one but God, myself, and marcus truly know how hard it was how tiring or should i say exhausting it was- so glad God took that burden -

we talked about listening to what God has for us and taken that time just to listen and not be busy all the time- listening is good- i have been listening during this fast- a lot-

as i was driving home i did get somewhat reflective not sure why- and am realizing my son is growing up- oye i wish he was 4 again to make it all right earlier in our familiness instead of taking 6 years for him to be ok- i know i know it allworked out why go back - not regreting what happened just would have done it sooner- so he could have enjoyed his younger years earlier. its ok though- if i was being honest right now in this moment i wish he was a little guy again just for a brief time- he has matured so much and has accomplished so much - makes me so proud-

so he has made me proud once again

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Weekend Post

Its Sunday night and I am tired- went to church this morning and had a good children's church service- Yesterday was a busy day- we had a track meet in Clermont- all day- left at 545 am got home about 9 pm (made a stop on the way home to wish Savanna a happy bday) we got back into town about 8 though.

Marcus ran the first event of the day and the last 2 of 3 of the day- he pushed himself the entire day and his times are coming down. I think he - or should I say I hope he is getting the concept of hard work pays off and that if he pushes himself at practice it will pay off at the meets

We are surely blessed to have awesome coaches- I do not think any of them have kids involved and yet they volunteer there time and work hard with the kids- of which I am forever grateful-

Here is what was Marcus' angry face way back when- Now used for a better purpose of determination

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

prayer and praise

tonight we had a time of prayer and praise at church- it was an amazing time in His presence-
praying for our city- the people of our city from children - youth - young adults - single parents- and the list goes on

thank you Lord for your amazing love and grace- reach down and touch this area in a mighty way

Monday, April 15, 2013

communication and conflict

you know it is so important to communicate and not let things build up inside- i know i am preaching to myself- but i have gotten a lot better- being a manager work and a leader at church - things could be solved so much quicker if we communicated better-
no one likes conflict and half the time if communication is involved then there would be no conflict- anywho that is my rant

Sunday, April 14, 2013

finally it has arrived

Parents You are Not Alone will have a support group in the Tampa Bay area. I got approval to hold meetings in the Hillsborough County Libraries. I know Pasco families but it will be close to you-
My plan is to meet in 2 different libraries once a month- my goal - Lutz Library and New Tampa Library- I will know for sure hopefully tomorrow if the rooms are available for the dates I would like to start- so begin getting the word out- there is support for you and you are not alone with your behavior challenged child- check out my other blog regarding more information
www.parentsyouarenotalone.com and also LIKE my facebook page Parents You are Not Alone

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Happy Bday- the last year of tweeness for me

well- i could say i was in labor for 20 hours with my first child and it was an easy delivery with him coming into the world at 1 in the afternoon at Tampa General. however that is not the case- i had no idea of his existence until 4 years later when he came into my world-

unfortunately his biological mom could not take care of him- his extended biological family could not take care of him- there is no knowledge of who his biological father is ( marcus knows all this)
his biological mom tried she did not prevail- which meant for the first 4 years of his life he was in foster care- changed forever in that environment. however, just like Sunday came for Jesus to be a live there came a day where Marcus' life was forever transformed- forever changed forever became a part of a family- that loved him and worked so very hard to mold him into the young man we have in our midst today- So thankful that God allowed me the opportunity to pour into his life- he is forever changed and i am forever changed

Happy Birthday Marcus- you are such a blessing to me!!!